I'm 18, a virgin, and have never been kissed even.
I'm not unattractive at all, people actually tell me i'm pretty and unique looking (i'm Russian-american)
However, when someone is interested in me romantically, I back off and ignore them or slow things down.
I am shy naturally but I'm just always afraid...not necessarily of being hurt, just afraid of being that close with someone.
Freshman year a lot of seniors wanted to have sex with me (they made it known...trust me, i'm not exaggerating) but...I didn't want to do any of them, like the fact they wanted to just made me NOT want to).
Now it's just pathetic that I have never been kissed. None of my friends even know this about me. I feel embarrassed by it.
I can't help but feel insecure and shy all the time about this stuff.
Is this an intimacy issue or what?
I'm not unattractive at all, people actually tell me i'm pretty and unique looking (i'm Russian-american)
However, when someone is interested in me romantically, I back off and ignore them or slow things down.
I am shy naturally but I'm just always afraid...not necessarily of being hurt, just afraid of being that close with someone.
Freshman year a lot of seniors wanted to have sex with me (they made it known...trust me, i'm not exaggerating) but...I didn't want to do any of them, like the fact they wanted to just made me NOT want to).
Now it's just pathetic that I have never been kissed. None of my friends even know this about me. I feel embarrassed by it.
I can't help but feel insecure and shy all the time about this stuff.
Is this an intimacy issue or what?