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Back in April I went through a breakup...before I met my ex, I was content being single. He was so serious and confident when pursuing me and he was sincere in a committment w. me. After a short lived relationship, he just gave up. No 3rd party, just quit bc he felt "selfish". I'm usually someone who's easygoing, naturally happy and confident but that break up really tested who I was and I went through a phase where I was insecure/lost/desperate for a while...I wasn't me. I put all my energy into work...and through there...i just started to re-group. I focused on work, had fun with friends...did all these hobbies i wanted to do and got back into working out again. My family was also planning a trip to hawaii - a needed break from everything i was going through. All that working out lead me to routine and by the time i was there, had the bikini body 
After the trip, I came back w. a stronger sense of self and so much love for me (fr. my family). It was one of those unexpected soul searching trips.I came back fr. that trip as a new person.
I haven't seen/talked to my ex since april. Friends/family have said the "real" reason why he broke up w. me was bc he felt insecure - he didn't feel like a "man" or needed like one. We're both 24 yet i'm much more independent/ambitious than he was and I think he expected me to be someone I wasn't (dramatic, clingy, needy...the kind of gf who wanted her bf to buy her everything and i'm NOTHING like that). When I got back fr. my trip i heard he "downgraded completely" from me to this girl who's SUPER young. For some reason it bothered me (not bc he's into someone else but) bc he found his special someone before me. He lead me on and did what he did yet he "won" w. a new girlfriend...and I felt like I was supposed to be the one w someone new and better. Tonight, my best friend bf (who is related to him) suggested to stop by at his house party. I made an effort for the past 6 months not to see him and i was torn. ONE, he's an ex - i got nothing to do w. him therefore I should just go straight home BUT then again, if it really doesn't matter then I should go...and besides, I look really good in my halloween costume time to face my fear, right? My friends were worried bc they didn't want me being "disappointed" if i saw him and this new girl and that was my concern too. I ended up going bc i really had to use the bathroom but here's the thing: it was the best thing that could happen to me after all this suffering. I told them to let him know ahead of time (since it's been a while) and i didn't want to be disrespectful and just "show up". My friend told him I was there and he just said, "yeah okay... i don't care". I saw him and i was surprisingly polite and normal, as if I just saw him yesterday. He (on the other hand), seemed out of his element but trying to keep his "i don't care" mode. I gave him a quick side hug and we both said, "hi, how are you..." After that I caught up w. his friends and i'm sorry (don't mean to sound cocky) but all his friends (guys and girls) moved fr. the room he was in to where I was at and we were genuinely happy to talk and see each other. Even his best friend left his (and the girl's) side and they spent the rest of the night talking and hanging out w. me Thing w. my ex is he's a friendly guy and is known to be friendly whenever he runs into his exes but w. me, he just had a slowed/delayed reaction...not "happy" to see me but not "angry" either...just blank. When I thanked him and wished him a good night as I left, he still had that delayed reaction...not even normal...it's all "acting" as if he didn't care but I know he was probably dumfounded....WHY WAS HE LIKE THIS?
Anyhoo, i'm proud of myself w. how i handled that...i thought i was going to be feel a bit biter but I think that moment healed everything, ironically. I look at him and he's still the same guy...he hasn't changed one bit. I'm a completely different person - i lost weight fr. working out, my makeup's better, i was in sexy (but classy) halloween costume, good attitude/polite, i'm in nursing school and working at a hospital...i've changed all around...and as much of a nice guy he is...he never deserved me... and no offense but his new girl wasn't...me and that's all I needed to know
I don't know why but the memory of him makes me sad - i wasn't happy nor would i ever be happy with him...he's definitely a nice guy but not decent. You could be broke, have an old car but if you were DECENT, i'd give you a shot. I look at him and even his new girl and it makes me sad that I even went through a relationship w. someone like him...It's very bitersweet to me. Why do I feel this way?
this sounds so high school but he posted up a pic of him and the new girl right after he saw me that night
After the trip, I came back w. a stronger sense of self and so much love for me (fr. my family). It was one of those unexpected soul searching trips.I came back fr. that trip as a new person. I haven't seen/talked to my ex since april. Friends/family have said the "real" reason why he broke up w. me was bc he felt insecure - he didn't feel like a "man" or needed like one. We're both 24 yet i'm much more independent/ambitious than he was and I think he expected me to be someone I wasn't (dramatic, clingy, needy...the kind of gf who wanted her bf to buy her everything and i'm NOTHING like that). When I got back fr. my trip i heard he "downgraded completely" from me to this girl who's SUPER young. For some reason it bothered me (not bc he's into someone else but) bc he found his special someone before me. He lead me on and did what he did yet he "won" w. a new girlfriend...and I felt like I was supposed to be the one w someone new and better. Tonight, my best friend bf (who is related to him) suggested to stop by at his house party. I made an effort for the past 6 months not to see him and i was torn. ONE, he's an ex - i got nothing to do w. him therefore I should just go straight home BUT then again, if it really doesn't matter then I should go...and besides, I look really good in my halloween costume
time to face my fear, right? My friends were worried bc they didn't want me being "disappointed" if i saw him and this new girl and that was my concern too. I ended up going bc i really had to use the bathroom but here's the thing: it was the best thing that could happen to me after all this suffering. I told them to let him know ahead of time (since it's been a while) and i didn't want to be disrespectful and just "show up". My friend told him I was there and he just said, "yeah okay... i don't care". I saw him and i was surprisingly polite and normal, as if I just saw him yesterday. He (on the other hand), seemed out of his element but trying to keep his "i don't care" mode. I gave him a quick side hug and we both said, "hi, how are you..." After that I caught up w. his friends and i'm sorry (don't mean to sound cocky) but all his friends (guys and girls) moved fr. the room he was in to where I was at and we were genuinely happy to talk and see each other. Even his best friend left his (and the girl's) side and they spent the rest of the night talking and hanging out w. me Thing w. my ex is he's a friendly guy and is known to be friendly whenever he runs into his exes but w. me, he just had a slowed/delayed reaction...not "happy" to see me but not "angry" either...just blank. When I thanked him and wished him a good night as I left, he still had that delayed reaction...not even normal...it's all "acting" as if he didn't care but I know he was probably dumfounded....WHY WAS HE LIKE THIS?Anyhoo, i'm proud of myself w. how i handled that...i thought i was going to be feel a bit biter but I think that moment healed everything, ironically. I look at him and he's still the same guy...he hasn't changed one bit. I'm a completely different person - i lost weight fr. working out, my makeup's better, i was in sexy (but classy) halloween costume, good attitude/polite, i'm in nursing school and working at a hospital...i've changed all around...and as much of a nice guy he is...he never deserved me... and no offense but his new girl wasn't...me and that's all I needed to know
I don't know why but the memory of him makes me sad - i wasn't happy nor would i ever be happy with him...he's definitely a nice guy but not decent. You could be broke, have an old car but if you were DECENT, i'd give you a shot. I look at him and even his new girl and it makes me sad that I even went through a relationship w. someone like him...It's very bitersweet to me. Why do I feel this way?this sounds so high school but he posted up a pic of him and the new girl right after he saw me that night