Soapy Ears
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I've considered myself a Christian all my life. A couple of years ago, I became disillusioned with the state my life has been in, for, say, the last 40 years. I've suffered from intense anxiety and depression all my life. I finally decided that there must be no God since I've prayed for relief from my suffering and none has ever come. I began questioning everything, and the notion that there is one supreme Being that controls everything, can hear everyones prays at the same time, and also knows how many hairs are on the head of everyone on the planet, seemed well, ludicrous. I've missed my relationship with Him, yet I knew that all those prayers over all those years were not heard by anyone. The whole "God" thing was some colossal joke perpetrated on the human race. I believed that man created God, not the other way around. Man needed something to give his life meaning so he created this fictional deity to help it all make sense. It gave him hope and eased his fears about death and the afterlife.
So, with all these convictions ingrained in my belief systems - why, why did I suddenly start praying outloud to "God" yesterday as I was driving to work?
So, with all these convictions ingrained in my belief systems - why, why did I suddenly start praying outloud to "God" yesterday as I was driving to work?