Why am I so weird - I want to be ill.. i think..?

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I know, it sounds mad! But I think I do..

i got heart palpitations and pains nd stuff so went 2 c docs they just said lose weight i was like oh is that all i have to do im not in any trouble


but this was yrs bk so i kinda dipped into eating disorders nd stuff. and i'm also like purposely craving insomnia, i like.. don't go to sleep and would rather listen to my ipod for hours.
i know people are wanting to do it cos they dont wanna sleep or they just 'have' eating disorders


but i'm sure an abnormally big part of me wants to be ill i can hear that thought..
why would i want to be ill??
is there a name for this as a condition or anything.
i've never heard anyone say it before but i've thouht it, just thought i should ask =S
Oh thanks! but make no mistake i don't feel so bad in my life, i just feel that my thinking is quite....... strange...... at the moment lol.

maybe it is for the attention, that could explain it =/
 
I don't know if there is a name but I understand where you are coming from as I have been asking myself the same question for ages. For example, I kept getting eye pains. I went to the Doctor and they said I was fine..just need to wear my glasses more. I thought, 'oh, is that it?!' I don't know why but I felt, like, kind of disappointed in a way! That has happened a few times now. I think with me, I liked the attention and love i was feeling from my family and boyfriend so when I realise I am ok, I feel bad as I want to be loved and made to feel important or something. PLEASE don't feel alone in this. I think maybe we need to get some focus in life. Try doing things you enjoy and that make you feel special even if it's cooking or simply playing some sport or something. Hope I have helped you. x
 
I don't know if there is a name but I understand where you are coming from as I have been asking myself the same question for ages. For example, I kept getting eye pains. I went to the Doctor and they said I was fine..just need to wear my glasses more. I thought, 'oh, is that it?!' I don't know why but I felt, like, kind of disappointed in a way! That has happened a few times now. I think with me, I liked the attention and love i was feeling from my family and boyfriend so when I realise I am ok, I feel bad as I want to be loved and made to feel important or something. PLEASE don't feel alone in this. I think maybe we need to get some focus in life. Try doing things you enjoy and that make you feel special even if it's cooking or simply playing some sport or something. Hope I have helped you. x
 
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