So this how I have been feeling this for a good while now, around 6/7 months or more. I'm 14, girl, and my aunt has depression, and I think i might have BPD
-Most of the time, i'm very sad sometimes for no apparent reasons and sometimes for actual reasons.
-I have had toughs of suicide and I have scratched my arms and legs when i'm mad ,sad.
-I have taken around 12 pills of advil or panadol when I had gotten anxious, scared or sad and sometimes I mix both of them and I don't care about the consequences, and I have done this a few time( 4 or 5 times).
- I don't like to go out, I like to stay home and alone, doing nothing, i'm not social, and I have this hatred to awards most people.
- I have mood swings, for an hour I get sad for an important and life changing situation and I get teary and really sad, and then out of the blue or if someone says something funny, I just change up my mood and I get happy, and then later, around 4/5 hours I get sad again and so on...
-I take rejection very harshly, I get very protective.I feel very tired and worthless at times and as i've said i contemplate suicide, but never have the drive to do it.
-I have a very sad, hopeless mood while at the same time feeling extremely energized.
-I get anxious often, And sometimes, when I should be anxious, I get totally mellow.
-I have had a panic attack once(felt very dizzy like I was going to become unconscious and My breath was getting heavier so it was harder to breath).
-I have a high blood pressure,( ever since I was small).
-Most of the time, i'm very sad sometimes for no apparent reasons and sometimes for actual reasons.
-I have had toughs of suicide and I have scratched my arms and legs when i'm mad ,sad.
-I have taken around 12 pills of advil or panadol when I had gotten anxious, scared or sad and sometimes I mix both of them and I don't care about the consequences, and I have done this a few time( 4 or 5 times).
- I don't like to go out, I like to stay home and alone, doing nothing, i'm not social, and I have this hatred to awards most people.
- I have mood swings, for an hour I get sad for an important and life changing situation and I get teary and really sad, and then out of the blue or if someone says something funny, I just change up my mood and I get happy, and then later, around 4/5 hours I get sad again and so on...
-I take rejection very harshly, I get very protective.I feel very tired and worthless at times and as i've said i contemplate suicide, but never have the drive to do it.
-I have a very sad, hopeless mood while at the same time feeling extremely energized.
-I get anxious often, And sometimes, when I should be anxious, I get totally mellow.
-I have had a panic attack once(felt very dizzy like I was going to become unconscious and My breath was getting heavier so it was harder to breath).
-I have a high blood pressure,( ever since I was small).