What's wrong with me? I feel weird..

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Proud2BAMuslim

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Lately I've been feeling a bit--off. I've been overheating easily, becoming out of breath, loss of apitite (Very unusal),Stomach pains. And for feelings i've been feeling these major emotions, anger, sadness and a feeling that is just blank.

Now I must tell you for those who don't know, I am not an angery person AT ALL. If something bugs me I let it go. If something gets me upset I keep my mouth shut and keep it to myself. I don't do anything to alliviate my anger. Also on another note the last time I flipped out and yelled at anyone was literally a year ago.

Earlier today in my science class there was this kid who sat in front of me and kept turning around to talk to someone behind me. Now this kid is very immature, unintellegent, and loud. I was starting to get bugged but usually it's nothing. But then I flipped out and started to almost yell at him. All I can remember saying is "Shut up!" and people laughing at me and the kid. I can't remember anything else that I did or said. Why? I had no reason to be that angry? What the hell? I checked with some people after and they said I said something along the lines like "You're fuckin' pissin' me off. Shut the fuck up and turn around and stop talking to her" Or something like that....And he said "What you just say? Don't make me hurt your feelings.." and I guess I mocked him or something. Wtf? That's not me at all!

I don't know what's wrong with me....It's starting to worry myself and other around me that care about me. What is it? Me just being...weird or something else? :sad:
 
I think it's just part of being a teenager. It will pass sooner or later. I went through the same kind of thing, and I get still get frustrated easily by the most mundane things. Just gotta stick it out, :thumbsup:
 
Sounds like a dead ringer for bipolar disorder, but it couldn't be because you'd be experiencing those symptoms your whole life.

Then again, if you have EVER had these quirks to any degree of severity, you might have bipolar. It may have gotten worse due to puberty. That happened with me.

I'm lucky, I outgrew autism and now I'm outgrowing my bipolar too, within the past three months, off of meds, my manias and depressions are weak. I used to be nearly incurable...it no longer impacts my life much anymore, thank God.
 
The more you worry about it, the more "it" consumes you.
I tend to forget about it simple I know there are people whose life sucks more than me (no offense to those people). However, the depression still comes back from time to time (yeah, as you probably saw me a few days ago). It's called post-holiday depression. Some times don't listen to what other people tell you to do. Be who you are and f others. If some kids annoys you, and you jumped on him. That's his fault not yours. The more you feel guilty about every little bit of detail, the more anxiety (chemical) you generate.

But hell, I am not a doctor so once you get to college, you'll get free psychological consultation which is pretty useful.

Oh, read a book called "Civilization and Its Discontents"
NO OFFENSE TO ANY FELLOW MEMBERS WHO DISLIKES THIS BOOK.
 
Sari might I suggest that maybe that "If something bugs me I let it go. If something gets me upset I keep my mouth shut and keep it to myself. " means you're not really letting it go, just putting it deep down and letting it build up until you eventually explode over something that has not much to do with the things you've put in your "Anger Chest". Maybe you should let off a little more steam now and then and not let it all bottle up?
 
Maybe you are infected with an alien parasite.


Or maybe you just aren't getting enough rest. Not getting enough rest will make you irritable and decrease your immune defenses.
 
Maybe I went to a really shitty college, but when I went to see one of the school counselors, she in no uncertain terms told me she had better shit to do than listen to a whiny college freshman, and that I should "buck up and deal with it".
 
I'm with JLXC on this one. If you don't find a good way to let your anger out... you will eventually pop. Think of your emotions like soda in a bottle. Eventually if it's shaken enough, it'll pop your cap off and fizz out or even explode out. You need to let some of the air exhaust so that doesn't happen. Don't be afraid to just talk to someone when something does bother you. It may seem insignificant to you, whatever is bothering you, but it does add to the bottled up emotions. That's why small things may even cause you to react like you did.

You may not realize it now, but it's very important you find another, more productive way of letting steam out. Like I said, just talk to someone. Remember, it's ok to express what's bothering you. Sometimes those things can be large and uncomfortable, sometimes it's going to be something small and insignificant. But, if you don't talk to someone, you will not learn how to let your emotions out in a healthy manner. You will find it hard to keep friends in the future. You will find it hard to deal with things that are minor that you would normally have no problems with. You may seem to become bitter and angry at generally nothing. You'll notice that part, but you won't be able to control it. That's already startign to happen, such as with the kid in your classroom doing something that normally only bugs you a little.

Please for your own sake, designate a few friends to talk to about stuff. They are your friends. That is what they are there for..to listen and help.
 
Sounds like you've been juicing up. I would suggest immediately halting consumption of anabolic steroids.

In all seriousness, the more you let anger build in you, or the more emotions you suppress, the worse it will be when you finally flip your shit on something or someone. I would take up a martial art, or get some sort of a heavy/speed bag or something to take your anger out on.
 
In my personal opinion it's a note that something else is wrong with you.

If you think of your atention as a plastic cup on your head then you start your day already half full. You can't really see it, but it's still there. It'll concern you until you remember you have to take it off your head.

I can't possibly know what it is or how it affects you, but you should take some time to pause and look at your life and yourself in order to get in tune with yourself.

Women normally avoid admiting to themselves a few things. One is usually that they like a man. Other things vary, but they usually go along with something they don't want to do or admit...
 
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