have the life you want and desire? and you can never truly be who you are, having to hide under a mask of unaffectedness as you realize more day by day that what you want can never be yours...
now i am not suicidal, i am not even depressed, i enjoy life at times but the fact that i can never have what i want keeps hitting me in the face... i mean what's the point of living...
i'm not gonna hurt myself, i don't even think i have the courage to do that, it just crosses my mind and i can't be naive and hopeful when it all seems clear; the life i desire is out of my reach...
what i want is pretty basic, it's not a dream of fame of fortune or anything like that. it's the things you're supposed to have (you have a right to have) should you choose you want them, i just don't have that choice...
now i am not suicidal, i am not even depressed, i enjoy life at times but the fact that i can never have what i want keeps hitting me in the face... i mean what's the point of living...
i'm not gonna hurt myself, i don't even think i have the courage to do that, it just crosses my mind and i can't be naive and hopeful when it all seems clear; the life i desire is out of my reach...
what i want is pretty basic, it's not a dream of fame of fortune or anything like that. it's the things you're supposed to have (you have a right to have) should you choose you want them, i just don't have that choice...