Übermensch
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than 10 years? I am psychotic and have been for more than 10 years?
When I was in hospital I saw a psychiatrist maybe once a week. For the first, and longest time I was in hospital I never saw a psychologist at all. After that I was in a few times, which were from weeks to months I never saw a psychologist in that time either. On my last visit to the psych ward (different hospital which only has a ward) I saw a psychologist maybe twice in my time there, we didn't really talk much, but she seemed to agree with the psychiatrist at the ward that my diagnosis is just anxiety. I saw my psychiatrist weekly throughout all of those times. The thing is I was only ever asked about the medication, and small talk questions like "how am you doing?" which require the socially acceptable and expected answer of "fine" or "ok".
I have known for a long time now that my condition is a lot worse than anxiety. When I think back to my time with the psychiatrists and psychologists I don't recall ever being given an opportunity via questions or expressed permission for me to talk about these things.
I will admit that I am quiet and shy and don't say much, but I can't help but blame them, if they had taken some time and asked the right questions, which is what I presume they are trained and educated in doing, then they could have properly diagnosed me and given me proper treatment and help that I need. Instead I have spent years suffering this illness, fighting and coping with it on my own, using alcohol as medication, scared to ask for prescription medication in case they think I am acting to get the meds, which is what I assume, I still have the packet of meds in my cupboard from many years ago, just to prove them wrong for their incorrect assumptions.
In case you need to know my illness: Many delusions (which I say are delusions so you understand, for me they are reality) for many years.
When I was in hospital I saw a psychiatrist maybe once a week. For the first, and longest time I was in hospital I never saw a psychologist at all. After that I was in a few times, which were from weeks to months I never saw a psychologist in that time either. On my last visit to the psych ward (different hospital which only has a ward) I saw a psychologist maybe twice in my time there, we didn't really talk much, but she seemed to agree with the psychiatrist at the ward that my diagnosis is just anxiety. I saw my psychiatrist weekly throughout all of those times. The thing is I was only ever asked about the medication, and small talk questions like "how am you doing?" which require the socially acceptable and expected answer of "fine" or "ok".
I have known for a long time now that my condition is a lot worse than anxiety. When I think back to my time with the psychiatrists and psychologists I don't recall ever being given an opportunity via questions or expressed permission for me to talk about these things.
I will admit that I am quiet and shy and don't say much, but I can't help but blame them, if they had taken some time and asked the right questions, which is what I presume they are trained and educated in doing, then they could have properly diagnosed me and given me proper treatment and help that I need. Instead I have spent years suffering this illness, fighting and coping with it on my own, using alcohol as medication, scared to ask for prescription medication in case they think I am acting to get the meds, which is what I assume, I still have the packet of meds in my cupboard from many years ago, just to prove them wrong for their incorrect assumptions.
In case you need to know my illness: Many delusions (which I say are delusions so you understand, for me they are reality) for many years.