I invited my friend to youth group, well actually she was over at my house and she asked if she could go to youth group with me and I said no probably not, I have a lot of homework to do and I have to get ready for worship (I make power point slides and that night I helped lead). She ended up staying and helping with power points while i did my homework. She came to youth group and she went to small group while i stayed out with the worship team and worked on the songs... I ended uo crying and she asked a few people why and they wouldn't tell her..she asked me and I said its just something I cant talk about.
I was crying because i was upset about worship and I was kind of angry that I worked really hard and I never got to play but I got over that and I was a little upset at her, I felt like I had to watch what I did and said around her.
She brings it up over a month later saying she was mad at me for not telling her and I ended up writing her a letter this is what it said:
I can't do the drama this is causing, I don't understand why you are bringing it up now over a month after you came to youth group with me. You want the truth here it is, youth group is my safe place it's where I know I can go and 90% if not all of the people are there for each other, you're not here for me... I know when I say something to my small group they aren't going to tell people if they have a problem with me, they come to me not other people, I know that no matter what happens at home or school or there if I'm upset I can go to pretty much anyone at youth group with you there it wasn't a place I felt safe. You act like your someone perfect and that all of these things are my fault. I can't believe you seriously went down to mr. Simmons about this and asked if we could talk because your afraid I would hurt you like physically hurt you. I'm not that kind of person. And just like I said all you and zack do when you talk is yell at each other that's not a good relationship, for you or for him. I don't want to completely end our friendship because I have too many good memories with you. It's almost like you are looking for drama because I would have brought this up when it happened not well over a month later if we are going to make a friendship work then you need to be honest about your feelings. I'm not going hold a grudge and not forgive you but the trust that I had in you is gone.
As far as the religion goes, you really need to stop with that because it's not true first off and second it's my life if I lying about which I'm not does that really affect you? No it doesn't. If there isn't a God and I spend the rest of my life worshiping him does it really change much? No, at least I lived my life for something and again it doesn't affect you at all. I want to be here for you, write down your questions about Christianity and I will answer them the best I can.
Am I mad right now? Yes. Am I upset? Yeah. I know I should call you but I can't because I will cry and I don't want to do that again today and it's a little bit late. I can't do this fighting, all the drama and stress, I have SATs to prepare for and midterms and I can't handle all of that and a stressful friendship. Idk what else to say but I have said how I feel. Yes I might have more to add but for now I have said how I feel. You know my number we can't talk in school you need to call me or you need to message me back because in school I need to focus on school work.
this is what she said:
my feelings. you seem like a fake christian to me. on top i wanted to blow the whole things off, but after a month i finally realized, i couldnt hold it in. i dont know who u got ur info from but you just basically ended all of my friendships. i dont understand how u felt it was un safe with me there. i would never tell anyone anything you said. the way you act and talk screams i am a fake christian. you want the truth and feeling now? i quit being chritian bcuz u were my final straw. ur to fake. weather its true or not, i dont care. i want to b friends with u but U are the one who acts like there perfect. you are constantly putting everyone around you down. i dont yell at zack him and i argue. you want to know the difference between his arguing and ur's him i walk away saying god zack just listen to me. u... well basically hostil and pissed and angry and mad and frustrated. if i say a banana is yellow u say its green if i say 2+2=5 u correct me and say 4. everyo
everyone makes mistakes. so who the one that acts like there fucking fake. and the religion ur the one that always brings it up, not me and believe it or not it does affect me. and R u trying to say i live my life for nothing. NO. i live my life for something. for my future, my family and my god. right now im not christian but i still believe in god i just have fucking questions. and you never fucking focus on ur school work if ur so fucking caring about ur grade and school do ur fucking homework and quit asking me if i got it done. and i have always been the person u run to, and i to you. i have never told anyone the deep things u tell me. Mmm, i wonder what people would say iof i told them about ur fb stalking, and many more. you are a smart girl u prob would even have to study for most of those tests and u would ace them. you are a smart and pretty girl but ur too insecure with yourself. i feel like you are jealous and u cant get past that and that is why u act the way towards me th
yeah jenn go to other people. it didnt hurt me at first, but u are a hipocrit. i dont understand how i can be christian for 15 years of my life and not be true to my relgion but in 2 weeks jenn mcintire is the best chritian ever bcuz she dont judge people. take this to offense if you want, but i have a more stressful life than you do. i dont want to end or friendship bcuz u R like a sister to me, but i am saying my good byes to you bcuz obviously we R both two very different people and our strong hearts are too much for one another. i am too independent and controlling and u are too independent and argumentative.
Sorry her response is broken up but it wouldnt let me post it all at once.
I was reading something on her computer and it said that she doesnt want to be my friend anymore she just hasnt decided when...Im so hurt and i feel so betrayed but she will be happy and thats all that counts right? Should I just tell her now I dont want to be friends with her?
and I wasnt snooping
I was crying because i was upset about worship and I was kind of angry that I worked really hard and I never got to play but I got over that and I was a little upset at her, I felt like I had to watch what I did and said around her.
She brings it up over a month later saying she was mad at me for not telling her and I ended up writing her a letter this is what it said:
I can't do the drama this is causing, I don't understand why you are bringing it up now over a month after you came to youth group with me. You want the truth here it is, youth group is my safe place it's where I know I can go and 90% if not all of the people are there for each other, you're not here for me... I know when I say something to my small group they aren't going to tell people if they have a problem with me, they come to me not other people, I know that no matter what happens at home or school or there if I'm upset I can go to pretty much anyone at youth group with you there it wasn't a place I felt safe. You act like your someone perfect and that all of these things are my fault. I can't believe you seriously went down to mr. Simmons about this and asked if we could talk because your afraid I would hurt you like physically hurt you. I'm not that kind of person. And just like I said all you and zack do when you talk is yell at each other that's not a good relationship, for you or for him. I don't want to completely end our friendship because I have too many good memories with you. It's almost like you are looking for drama because I would have brought this up when it happened not well over a month later if we are going to make a friendship work then you need to be honest about your feelings. I'm not going hold a grudge and not forgive you but the trust that I had in you is gone.
As far as the religion goes, you really need to stop with that because it's not true first off and second it's my life if I lying about which I'm not does that really affect you? No it doesn't. If there isn't a God and I spend the rest of my life worshiping him does it really change much? No, at least I lived my life for something and again it doesn't affect you at all. I want to be here for you, write down your questions about Christianity and I will answer them the best I can.
Am I mad right now? Yes. Am I upset? Yeah. I know I should call you but I can't because I will cry and I don't want to do that again today and it's a little bit late. I can't do this fighting, all the drama and stress, I have SATs to prepare for and midterms and I can't handle all of that and a stressful friendship. Idk what else to say but I have said how I feel. Yes I might have more to add but for now I have said how I feel. You know my number we can't talk in school you need to call me or you need to message me back because in school I need to focus on school work.
this is what she said:
my feelings. you seem like a fake christian to me. on top i wanted to blow the whole things off, but after a month i finally realized, i couldnt hold it in. i dont know who u got ur info from but you just basically ended all of my friendships. i dont understand how u felt it was un safe with me there. i would never tell anyone anything you said. the way you act and talk screams i am a fake christian. you want the truth and feeling now? i quit being chritian bcuz u were my final straw. ur to fake. weather its true or not, i dont care. i want to b friends with u but U are the one who acts like there perfect. you are constantly putting everyone around you down. i dont yell at zack him and i argue. you want to know the difference between his arguing and ur's him i walk away saying god zack just listen to me. u... well basically hostil and pissed and angry and mad and frustrated. if i say a banana is yellow u say its green if i say 2+2=5 u correct me and say 4. everyo
everyone makes mistakes. so who the one that acts like there fucking fake. and the religion ur the one that always brings it up, not me and believe it or not it does affect me. and R u trying to say i live my life for nothing. NO. i live my life for something. for my future, my family and my god. right now im not christian but i still believe in god i just have fucking questions. and you never fucking focus on ur school work if ur so fucking caring about ur grade and school do ur fucking homework and quit asking me if i got it done. and i have always been the person u run to, and i to you. i have never told anyone the deep things u tell me. Mmm, i wonder what people would say iof i told them about ur fb stalking, and many more. you are a smart girl u prob would even have to study for most of those tests and u would ace them. you are a smart and pretty girl but ur too insecure with yourself. i feel like you are jealous and u cant get past that and that is why u act the way towards me th
yeah jenn go to other people. it didnt hurt me at first, but u are a hipocrit. i dont understand how i can be christian for 15 years of my life and not be true to my relgion but in 2 weeks jenn mcintire is the best chritian ever bcuz she dont judge people. take this to offense if you want, but i have a more stressful life than you do. i dont want to end or friendship bcuz u R like a sister to me, but i am saying my good byes to you bcuz obviously we R both two very different people and our strong hearts are too much for one another. i am too independent and controlling and u are too independent and argumentative.
Sorry her response is broken up but it wouldnt let me post it all at once.
I was reading something on her computer and it said that she doesnt want to be my friend anymore she just hasnt decided when...Im so hurt and i feel so betrayed but she will be happy and thats all that counts right? Should I just tell her now I dont want to be friends with her?
and I wasnt snooping