Jolly Otter
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I asked this question yesterday but didn't get much of a response.
People said I should seek help but before I do so, I'd like to know what could be wrong with me so I can prepare myself.
Sorry this question is so long, it's just hard for me to explain.
- I'm paranoid
I constantly think that people can read my mind. I'm always forcing "nice" thoughts into my head.
However, sometimes I panic and have disturbing thoughts. The more I try and push them out, the more I get them.
I keep thinking that ghosts are following me everywhere and I talk to them (I don't see or hear anything, I just think they're there). The thing is, I've never believed in ghosts in my life.
I feel like I'm being watched. I think there are cameras and microphones hidden around the house and that everything I do is monitored. As a result, I shower in my swimming costume, keep the curtains closed at all times, get dressed in the dark and carefully watch what I'm saying.
I keep thinking my family are plotting against me. I don't like leaving them alone together because I think they're slagging me off.
Every time I try and tell myself these thoughts aren't true, I think that maybe they want me to think I'm cracking up.
- I'm anxious all the time.
I literally can't leave my house. I'm scared that if I go out, people will stare and laugh at me.
Last time I went out, I think I had a panic attack. I couldn't stop shaking and I felt like I couldn't breathe.
- I get REALLY angry over tiny things.
For example, the other night my mum forgot to buy carrots and I snapped at her.
I sometimes get violent and I know this sounds odd but I literally can't control it.
When someone gets me angry, I vividly imagine myself murdering them.
I feel like a sicko, this isn't me. I just want to go back to my old calm, confident self.
- I struggle to concentrate
I can't focus on one thing for more than 15 minutes. Because of this, I'm constantly switching activities.
When I'm having a conversation, I often stop mid-sentence because I've forgotten what I was talking about or I can't think of the word I want to use (most of the time they're simple words).
I don't know if this has anything to do with it but I often get tongue tied, even when I'm saying something simple.
People said I should seek help but before I do so, I'd like to know what could be wrong with me so I can prepare myself.
Sorry this question is so long, it's just hard for me to explain.
- I'm paranoid
I constantly think that people can read my mind. I'm always forcing "nice" thoughts into my head.
However, sometimes I panic and have disturbing thoughts. The more I try and push them out, the more I get them.
I keep thinking that ghosts are following me everywhere and I talk to them (I don't see or hear anything, I just think they're there). The thing is, I've never believed in ghosts in my life.
I feel like I'm being watched. I think there are cameras and microphones hidden around the house and that everything I do is monitored. As a result, I shower in my swimming costume, keep the curtains closed at all times, get dressed in the dark and carefully watch what I'm saying.
I keep thinking my family are plotting against me. I don't like leaving them alone together because I think they're slagging me off.
Every time I try and tell myself these thoughts aren't true, I think that maybe they want me to think I'm cracking up.
- I'm anxious all the time.
I literally can't leave my house. I'm scared that if I go out, people will stare and laugh at me.
Last time I went out, I think I had a panic attack. I couldn't stop shaking and I felt like I couldn't breathe.
- I get REALLY angry over tiny things.
For example, the other night my mum forgot to buy carrots and I snapped at her.
I sometimes get violent and I know this sounds odd but I literally can't control it.
When someone gets me angry, I vividly imagine myself murdering them.
I feel like a sicko, this isn't me. I just want to go back to my old calm, confident self.
- I struggle to concentrate
I can't focus on one thing for more than 15 minutes. Because of this, I'm constantly switching activities.
When I'm having a conversation, I often stop mid-sentence because I've forgotten what I was talking about or I can't think of the word I want to use (most of the time they're simple words).
I don't know if this has anything to do with it but I often get tongue tied, even when I'm saying something simple.