I am a 20 yr old guy.Since early childhood I have always loved females, the way they look, dress or appear etc. I dream of girls mostly and their thoughts do arouse me or make me feel excited. Naked women do turn me on but I don't go mad over wanting to rape one and I feel it gross to treat a woman as a sex object to play with. Most of my friends are also girls and I love women emotionally too much.
But then, from teenage years, I have had thoughts of doing sexual things with guys. But the strange thing is that I don't find male bodies beautiful as much as female body, and a nude male would not turn me on. But I find it a turn on imagining myself receiving affection from a guy. I love the bonding and I get flings. Again, usually, the flings are not long lasting, and tend to move on from one guy to another and so, I have not felt like being in relationship with guys.
It is like, I love women far too much than men, but I also get romantic short term flings with guys though I dont find guys attractive that way. I also get turned on by all sorts of porn including heterosexual, gay/lesbian porns.
Does anybody else feel this way? Is it normal to be so sexually complicated?
But then, from teenage years, I have had thoughts of doing sexual things with guys. But the strange thing is that I don't find male bodies beautiful as much as female body, and a nude male would not turn me on. But I find it a turn on imagining myself receiving affection from a guy. I love the bonding and I get flings. Again, usually, the flings are not long lasting, and tend to move on from one guy to another and so, I have not felt like being in relationship with guys.
It is like, I love women far too much than men, but I also get romantic short term flings with guys though I dont find guys attractive that way. I also get turned on by all sorts of porn including heterosexual, gay/lesbian porns.
Does anybody else feel this way? Is it normal to be so sexually complicated?