English muffin
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I grew up in a dysfunctional home and my Father doesn't live with us. My mother said she wished I was never born (she tried to abort me when I was in her tummy) and I have no one to run to when I am sad. Recently an unexpected sad situation occurred in my life and I began to cry. When I started to cry, it became less and less about the sad thing that happened, but I kept thinking more and more about my family and how badly I was treated. There was so much abuse in my family. Both physical and psychological.
I thought I already took care of it all. I still love my family very much. I don't hate them or have any grudges against them. I think that would be unproductive. Plus, I love them too much. But... why does this still make me cry? And why do I only cry about it when something really bad happens to me? It's a gripping pain in my heart I can't get rid of.
My mother is a mental health nurse... but, there is no way I could talk to her about this. I can't talk to anyone.
What should I do?
I don't do drugs. I don't think drugs will help but make it worse.
I'm sorry.
I thought I already took care of it all. I still love my family very much. I don't hate them or have any grudges against them. I think that would be unproductive. Plus, I love them too much. But... why does this still make me cry? And why do I only cry about it when something really bad happens to me? It's a gripping pain in my heart I can't get rid of.
My mother is a mental health nurse... but, there is no way I could talk to her about this. I can't talk to anyone.
What should I do?
I don't do drugs. I don't think drugs will help but make it worse.
I'm sorry.