...I'm just not interested...? I've had an off & on again boyfriend for the last 9 years. We first got together in 2001 & we lived together & he had even wanted to marry me at one time, we broke up in 2006, then in 9-13-09 I almost died of multiple organ failure & the doctor's told me I had 6 months to live. I lived in a nursing home for awhile & he moved on, met a girl & they had a baby girl who is now 9 months old. He is no longer with that girl. We were both going through financial problems so we moved in together. It's kind of awkward because I haven't had sex in almost 2 years & the two of us haven't been intimate since 2006. We get along great as best friends, but I'm not interested in a sexual relationship & I can tell he is. I have congestive heart failure, liver failure & kidney failure & because of my medical problems, sex would also be difficult for me because of my heart. I know he understands that, but lately he has been touching me & rubbing my legs & trying to cuddle, but I don't want to lead him on...
I wish we could magically go back to the time when we were a young couple in love & sexually active, but so many things in my life have changed, but he is still a very healthy & attractive male. We spend time together, watch tv together, laugh together, I make dinner & keep the house clean, but something seems to be missing & I now it's because of my insecurities.
I just don't feel like the energetic young person I was over 3 years ago & I'm embarrassed I would be a total disappointment to him & it will ruin what we have now. I do feel attracted to him at times, but I don't want to have sex & I can tell he does. He says he still loves me & he has never stopped loving me all these years. I feel lucky to have him in my life, but I feel I will lose him if I don't have sex with him.
Women, what would you do if you were me? Men, how understanding would you be & how long would you be willing to wait or would you just seek sex elsewhere?
OOPS! HUGE error, I had multiple organ failure in September 13 2006
I wish we could magically go back to the time when we were a young couple in love & sexually active, but so many things in my life have changed, but he is still a very healthy & attractive male. We spend time together, watch tv together, laugh together, I make dinner & keep the house clean, but something seems to be missing & I now it's because of my insecurities.
I just don't feel like the energetic young person I was over 3 years ago & I'm embarrassed I would be a total disappointment to him & it will ruin what we have now. I do feel attracted to him at times, but I don't want to have sex & I can tell he does. He says he still loves me & he has never stopped loving me all these years. I feel lucky to have him in my life, but I feel I will lose him if I don't have sex with him.
Women, what would you do if you were me? Men, how understanding would you be & how long would you be willing to wait or would you just seek sex elsewhere?
OOPS! HUGE error, I had multiple organ failure in September 13 2006