Joshua Abraham
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I don't study, don't work, don't go out, don't meet with friends (don't want to have friends), i love silence, love loneliness, i love peace, and pure silence, i love simplest things, love and eat simplest food, go (seldom) at simplest places, dont want to watch tv, want to sit in the small room whole day, in the dark room, i don's wish to do anything and feel i should die and my mind should stop fully, what is the problem with me? i dont have emotions also, many people from my family died but i never cried, and i feel no pain, i have no (so much) bad past, i have no bad present, but i just do not wish to go inside the hustle bustle of the city life and wish to be in pure silence, is it normal? i dont even feel to do sex or to have gf. i have no tension about my future, i just want to be in complete silence, why? what is my problem? i am no poor, i have money to have the best of life, but still my mind is stopped completely, why? i am mentally dead? i feel to do suicide whole day and just cut off from this world, dont want to meet wid a doctor, dont want to breathe, dont want to stand, dont want to walk, i am actually 'dead' but physically alive, i have given deep pain to each and every individual around me, from my parents to my relatives to friends to society to all the circle, i have seen this drug 'nembutal' which can give painless death, will get it soon from somewhere and sleep forever