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bobbyshaye
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Hey all,
I'll give you a bit of background info first. I'm 18, currently studying at university. I've had a good life thus far, and my future seems promising. This year, however, my sister passed away, which shook my family to its core.{REMOVED}
I have posted this thread here, because my problem seems to be anxiety related, but it may not be, and this may belong in another topic entirely. But basically I'm looking for answers as to what this is, and how I can deal with it.
So here goes - basically, I have a mind that likes to turn on itself. You know that voice in your head we all have? Mine is prone to saying very negative, self deprecating things. I also have a fairly persistent paranoia that I might be going mad or losing touch with reality, and my mind's voice adRAB to this by saying things like "You're losing it, you're going crazy" etc. Philosophical thoughts about the nature of life, the fact that we're just highly developed apes and all that, just fuel a feeling I've been having more and more that life isn't real; that this is just a dream and I could go insane at any moment.
This doesn't happen all the time - I generally go through phases of it during the day. I can have perioRAB during which I'm really happy, which are often followed by negativity. For example, I'll get really excited about something, then I'll manage to convince myself it is terrible, through progressively more negative thinking. Trying to shut the negative thoughts out just makes them more persistent.
Interestingly, all the stuff I mentioned above often doesn't happen when I'm with people. If I'm with frienRAB, I can be very happy and positive - it's when I'm alone that the whole 'mind's voice' thing starts happening.
Anyway, thanks for reading this and I hope someone can give me some insight into what this is, why it happens or how I can get better.
Thanks,
Bobby
I'll give you a bit of background info first. I'm 18, currently studying at university. I've had a good life thus far, and my future seems promising. This year, however, my sister passed away, which shook my family to its core.{REMOVED}
I have posted this thread here, because my problem seems to be anxiety related, but it may not be, and this may belong in another topic entirely. But basically I'm looking for answers as to what this is, and how I can deal with it.
So here goes - basically, I have a mind that likes to turn on itself. You know that voice in your head we all have? Mine is prone to saying very negative, self deprecating things. I also have a fairly persistent paranoia that I might be going mad or losing touch with reality, and my mind's voice adRAB to this by saying things like "You're losing it, you're going crazy" etc. Philosophical thoughts about the nature of life, the fact that we're just highly developed apes and all that, just fuel a feeling I've been having more and more that life isn't real; that this is just a dream and I could go insane at any moment.
This doesn't happen all the time - I generally go through phases of it during the day. I can have perioRAB during which I'm really happy, which are often followed by negativity. For example, I'll get really excited about something, then I'll manage to convince myself it is terrible, through progressively more negative thinking. Trying to shut the negative thoughts out just makes them more persistent.
Interestingly, all the stuff I mentioned above often doesn't happen when I'm with people. If I'm with frienRAB, I can be very happy and positive - it's when I'm alone that the whole 'mind's voice' thing starts happening.
Anyway, thanks for reading this and I hope someone can give me some insight into what this is, why it happens or how I can get better.
Thanks,
Bobby