What do I do? Who do I talk to?

[Alexxa C]

Okay I'm am currently 19 years old. For as long as I remember I have had the greatest and worst imagination possible. I need you to understand this isn't me being funny, and being over dramatic. I honestly need help. I'm to the point of just crying at night once I decide its bed time. Since I was little I have been able to create monsters in my brain. They become so real that I terrify myself.The creature or thing I create becomes real. I can smell them, hear them, feel their presences, their body heat. I create scenarios where zombies come into my room or the tooth fairy from darkness falls, aliens, chucky. Just anything that could be scary in any way. The Grudge was the worst movie ever, I stayed up at night crying for about a month after I saw that movie. It isn't night terrors because that happens in the deepest stages of non REM sleep. But I don't know what to do. All my life I have had to stay up late at night until I am so exhausted that my body can no longer stay up. My mom has always dismissed it because she thought I was just wanting to stay up, but sooo many nights I wished she would let me sleep with her. I am STILL terrified of the dark and I STILL(even though it is embarrassing to admit) need my mother to calm me down. She is the only one who can calm me and make me feel safe. But what do I do since I live in a different state. I live in a house with my best friend and her boyfriend and I sleep with my girlfriend and German shepherd every night, but still all I want is for the sun to rise or for my mom to be there to sleep with me. I don't know what to do or how to fix this. I wish there were some pills I could take? Should I go get a therapist or someone to talk to? Help me please.