My boyfriend and I are 19 and 18 years old. We've been dating for two years. I do admit our relationship started off a bit sexual then turned to "real" feelings. Which I should of never let happen because now we've got that connection that nobody else has. Now we used to live together, but not for six months.. He lives with his parents and I'm back with my mom. So we usually sleep together at either one's house.. Which is usually his, which I hate, why can't we ever stay at my house? Ahh, whatever. Everything used to be fine till this summer when he started drinking. He claims he's "just being himself" but I swear he never drank when we met. And he only does now because his best friends do. Ohh and let me remind you he smokes weed. A lot. I have come to the realization that he will never stop and as long as he's not putting my life in danger, he can.. But that took me a long time, maybe six or seven months to get over.. But other than that, we're the perfect couple. The couple everybody would LOVE to be.
So in my past, before we got together, I had to deal with an abusive alcoholic step father, for eight years when I was 7 till I was about 15. As I was saying, my boyfriend all of a sudden has picked up this little "drinking habit" of his and well, it's annoying.. Who says "OMG it's Thirsty Thursday!" ? Dumb. Anywho.. Last Wednesday we made a little compromise pact thingy.. He could go out and drink TWO times a week, once in during the week (Mon-Thurs) and once during the weekend (Fri or Sat) and which ever WEEKEND night he doesn't drink he gives his complete attention to ME. Makes sense, right? Yeah, well I guess he doesn't get it. He had agree'd to something he didn't want to keep up with..
Two nights ago was Friday night, he went out drinking and came home around 3ish? And as soon as he did I asked him to hold me. (I love to snuggle him lots <3) And he said NO! so mean, and kept saying no and get the F off and blahblahblah. All cause I wanted MY MAN to HOLD ME. He didn't the entire night. He said his stomach hurt. LEARN TO CONTROL YOUR DRINKING BUDDY.
I mean, if that's how you're going to be every night and not even want a single thing to do with me? .. I donno.
So I blew that off yesterday morning and went to work. Thinking that when I got off I'd get to spend the night snuggling up with my boyfriend watching a movie or something.. Just me and him. NOPE. Boy was I wrong.. Picture this, you get off work an hour early (8PM) and you rush outside to call your boyfriend. Who automatically answers the phone with an attitude. Says he doesn't know what he's doing.. But he IS going out.. Not we, he is. So you get upset and hang up. Call back so he doesn't get mad. He said he doesn't want to hang out or see you tonight.. (How shi**y do you feel? It gets better) So you go home get all fixed up and pretty for him because he's always telling you that you never dress up for him.. (When does he ever ask to take you out? ... Never) And you wait. He tells you again and again through text making sure you dont start looking for him to NOT COME that he doesn't want to fight tonight. (wtf does that mean? nothing happened) I can go on and on talking about the texts of why cant i go and no response from him..
Blahblahblah, it's now 3:26 AM and Im at his house in his room, on his bed.. Asking you what I did wrong. I've been so bored that I've cleaned his room folded his clothes and listened to 4860 minutes of music. All I want is my boyfriend back.. the one I fell in love with..
So in my past, before we got together, I had to deal with an abusive alcoholic step father, for eight years when I was 7 till I was about 15. As I was saying, my boyfriend all of a sudden has picked up this little "drinking habit" of his and well, it's annoying.. Who says "OMG it's Thirsty Thursday!" ? Dumb. Anywho.. Last Wednesday we made a little compromise pact thingy.. He could go out and drink TWO times a week, once in during the week (Mon-Thurs) and once during the weekend (Fri or Sat) and which ever WEEKEND night he doesn't drink he gives his complete attention to ME. Makes sense, right? Yeah, well I guess he doesn't get it. He had agree'd to something he didn't want to keep up with..
Two nights ago was Friday night, he went out drinking and came home around 3ish? And as soon as he did I asked him to hold me. (I love to snuggle him lots <3) And he said NO! so mean, and kept saying no and get the F off and blahblahblah. All cause I wanted MY MAN to HOLD ME. He didn't the entire night. He said his stomach hurt. LEARN TO CONTROL YOUR DRINKING BUDDY.
I mean, if that's how you're going to be every night and not even want a single thing to do with me? .. I donno. So I blew that off yesterday morning and went to work. Thinking that when I got off I'd get to spend the night snuggling up with my boyfriend watching a movie or something.. Just me and him. NOPE. Boy was I wrong.. Picture this, you get off work an hour early (8PM) and you rush outside to call your boyfriend. Who automatically answers the phone with an attitude. Says he doesn't know what he's doing.. But he IS going out.. Not we, he is. So you get upset and hang up. Call back so he doesn't get mad. He said he doesn't want to hang out or see you tonight.. (How shi**y do you feel? It gets better) So you go home get all fixed up and pretty for him because he's always telling you that you never dress up for him.. (When does he ever ask to take you out? ... Never) And you wait. He tells you again and again through text making sure you dont start looking for him to NOT COME that he doesn't want to fight tonight. (wtf does that mean? nothing happened) I can go on and on talking about the texts of why cant i go and no response from him..
Blahblahblah, it's now 3:26 AM and Im at his house in his room, on his bed.. Asking you what I did wrong. I've been so bored that I've cleaned his room folded his clothes and listened to 4860 minutes of music. All I want is my boyfriend back.. the one I fell in love with..