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justcurious2
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I have had periods of this my entire life but recently am on lamictal (a seizure medication) for depersonalization disorder. I have noticed in the past week that I have this super hyper awareness of my thoughts, my physical movements, my interaction with my environment and my environment. I guess the best way to describe it is that if I close my eyes and have a thought I go "woah I'm thinking. Holy crap. I have thoughts. Wait, whose thoughts are these anyways, am I me?" or if I walk into a new room I am like "WOAH! I'm in the kitchen! Woah there's the cabinet. HOLY CRAP I'M TOUCHING THE CABINET" or if I move I am like "WOAH MY HAND JUST MOVED!!!".
To say the least it is incredibly disturbing. I would say that it feels closest to paranoia but I'm not worried that someone is out to get me, just worried that this is a symptom of a serious mental disorder. It is so pronounced and scary that I am kind of paralyzed by it. I don't want to move or think or interact with the world around me because it's like everything is super intense and screaming at me.
Could this be a side effect of the lamictal (I know that it affects neurotransmitters) or could this be a symptom of a developing mental illness?
To say the least it is incredibly disturbing. I would say that it feels closest to paranoia but I'm not worried that someone is out to get me, just worried that this is a symptom of a serious mental disorder. It is so pronounced and scary that I am kind of paralyzed by it. I don't want to move or think or interact with the world around me because it's like everything is super intense and screaming at me.
Could this be a side effect of the lamictal (I know that it affects neurotransmitters) or could this be a symptom of a developing mental illness?