Hi,
All my life, I remember loving women, I was interested by them at a very young age. I have never been an homophobe too, I always had a lot of respect for homosexuals, and never thought it was something to laugh at. I have been using pornography since I am a young teenager, and I think I became an addiction. I always watched heterosexual porn. I remember trying gay porn to test myself some years ago, it didn't work, I was disgusted by it (no offense).
But recently, I really think I became addicted to pornography and I began seeking more and more extreme pron, solo girls didn't do anything for me anymore. I went to a chat and I had gay cibersex (without webcam, only text) It worked ( I was affraid, and began questionning myself and becoming anxious, I am now going through a depression and I take medications for it) . Then after that, all the normal straight videos became really less exciting, and I barely have had a boner since that time, looking at heterosexual pornography. I stopped for like a motnh, tried again with normal porn and it worked, but the day after, it didn't.
The addiction came back. I am trying to stop the addiction the most I can. While I was "sober" I found the interest for the opposite sex come back gradually.I think that if I waited longer I would have came back.
So what do you think I am? Bi-curious? In denial? A sex addict? Or do I have hocd?
Please help me.
All my life, I remember loving women, I was interested by them at a very young age. I have never been an homophobe too, I always had a lot of respect for homosexuals, and never thought it was something to laugh at. I have been using pornography since I am a young teenager, and I think I became an addiction. I always watched heterosexual porn. I remember trying gay porn to test myself some years ago, it didn't work, I was disgusted by it (no offense).
But recently, I really think I became addicted to pornography and I began seeking more and more extreme pron, solo girls didn't do anything for me anymore. I went to a chat and I had gay cibersex (without webcam, only text) It worked ( I was affraid, and began questionning myself and becoming anxious, I am now going through a depression and I take medications for it) . Then after that, all the normal straight videos became really less exciting, and I barely have had a boner since that time, looking at heterosexual pornography. I stopped for like a motnh, tried again with normal porn and it worked, but the day after, it didn't.
The addiction came back. I am trying to stop the addiction the most I can. While I was "sober" I found the interest for the opposite sex come back gradually.I think that if I waited longer I would have came back.
So what do you think I am? Bi-curious? In denial? A sex addict? Or do I have hocd?
Please help me.