Were in love, but she wont let it happen =[?

Mike

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Im a senior in high school, and shes a sophomore in high school. we each brought different dates to prom. ever since prom we would text day in and day out. one day we were texting about hooking up. and i told her that if we did hook up, i didnt want a relationship out of it. she agreed. apparently she lied and wanted a relationship the entire time. and i secretly wanted one also. i told her i didn't want it to turn out into a relationship because it would have been my first time and i didnt want her to think i was a noob =] ---- stupid of me, i know!

we texted some more and more. and i threw a party. we finally hooked up and it was great! then i told her i wanted to date and start a relationship. she said no......

we texted some more, and decided that we will be friends with benefits. ( i thought it was an exclusive thing were we would have everything a gf and bf would have, just not have any emotional attachment or love.)

then one day we went to a club (their were 6 of use, 3 guys 3 girls). we danced with each other. and then took a break cuz of exhaustion. remember the girls were drunk

then i see her dancing with random black guys and mexicans. 5 mins later shes hooking up with some ahole. since were not a thing, i couldnt do anything about it. but seeing this it broke my break into bits. it hurt so damn much!

the next day we texted some more and talked about what happened. she pretty much told me that she was undecided what she wanted.

after that it was all ok, we texted some more and had fun.

she thought that we were allowed to go hook up and people and have fun, but still be able to hook up with each other
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i tell her that it was my fault i got jealous and felt hurt. that she did the correct thing and to stop blaming herself,,,,

2 weeks later we went to another dance club. this time i promised her that i would dance with a girl and hook up with her..... i couldnt do it

im just simply not the type of guy who hooks up with random girls. i cant bring myself to do it. she felt terrible that i wasnt having fun, and that she was

then we all went to my place and crashed their.

we were in the car. she and i were in the trunk while everyone else sat in the normal seats. we talked about our relationship and dating. she told me that shes afraid of me hurting her... for about 20 mins we were just kissing passionate, frenching each other like people mad in love!

my 2 other male friends and i were being "macho" and were doing pull ups and what not. (fly, im the strongest out of them, i have larger muscles than they all do. im not a massive guido. im just 18 with a good body, with a cute face--not being self absorbed, trust me)

we were fooling around and i slipped and fell on my back. ENORMOUS AMOUNT OF PAIN! i almost passed out!!!

i then laid down and this girl took care of me. she would give me water whenever i were thirsty and gave me an ice pack for my back. we cuddled and held hands till 10 am we talked and opened up to each other like we never have before

we both want a relationship badly and want to be together, but she thinks that once i start college ill find someone better than her and leave her in the dust.

shes afriad that when i start college ill go to parties and meet many people and i might fall in love. but even at clubs i cant bring myself to dance with strangers and kiss them. so theirs no way i would ever be able to find someone at college. and even if i did meet someone, i could NEVER be able to date them. this girl is very special to me, and i dont think i could ever hurt her.

what do i do to convince her that im a good person and that i care soooo damn f**k*** much!
 
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