SicilianSara21
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I barely escaped being raped by five men--well, I guess four, because the fifth seemed way too out of it to do anything, he was so drunk. They'd roofied me, but convinced each other to go for more beer while I was incapacitated. I managed to gain some control of my body and stagger back to my hotel room, before I collapsed in an unconscious heap on my bed. (This happened in the middle of nowhere, on a campus field trip up north where there was nothing but woods. Actually, the hotel was more like a multi-cabin building.)
(Yes, I’m sure it was a roofie because I looked up the symptoms, and I had 9 out of the 14 immediate symptoms, and 5 of the 9 symptoms following the next day. Oh, and I had THREE SIPS of one drink, and since then, I’ve had almost half a bottle of vodka in one night, and twice the daily dosage of my meds and it took me over 2 hours to fall asleep. The night I was drugged, I was out before my head hit the pillow.)
My grades have seriously dropped, like from A's & B's to C's & D's, and I tried talking to some "friends" about it. They made excuses because they "know" those "men" and they're "sure they would never have done anything." Yeah, right. They weren't there. They’re also telling me to “get over it” and stop “rehashing it” and that it’s my fault my grades are dropping.
I tried talking to a school counselor, but she somehow turned everything around in such a way that I felt ridiculed and like it was my fault and I would've deserved whatever they would've done to me if I hadn't escaped.
I told my Ma, and she was upset, and believed me. But she doesn't know that I still get scared being on campus, being by people I know I can't escape running into. She also lives hours away.
I've been consuming LOTS of alcohol to forget, and taking my anti-psychotic meds (I'm BiPolar) to help knock me out. I’m rarely eating and barely eating from the stress. I’ve probably lost 10 lbs in the last few weeks. I can't talk to anyone here. And I need to talk to someone.
I've tried some websites, but they make you comment or post things before you can reach a chat to actually talk to somebody. I can't make myself do those.
Can anyone help? I really feel like I’m going insane, and just thinking about what happened, I’m trembling so badly it’s getting hard to type.
The counselor I talked to was the head of that sexual assault and rape group!
Ugh, exhaustion: "sexual assault & rape support group"
Ugh, exhaustion: "sexual assault & rape support group"
(Yes, I’m sure it was a roofie because I looked up the symptoms, and I had 9 out of the 14 immediate symptoms, and 5 of the 9 symptoms following the next day. Oh, and I had THREE SIPS of one drink, and since then, I’ve had almost half a bottle of vodka in one night, and twice the daily dosage of my meds and it took me over 2 hours to fall asleep. The night I was drugged, I was out before my head hit the pillow.)
My grades have seriously dropped, like from A's & B's to C's & D's, and I tried talking to some "friends" about it. They made excuses because they "know" those "men" and they're "sure they would never have done anything." Yeah, right. They weren't there. They’re also telling me to “get over it” and stop “rehashing it” and that it’s my fault my grades are dropping.
I tried talking to a school counselor, but she somehow turned everything around in such a way that I felt ridiculed and like it was my fault and I would've deserved whatever they would've done to me if I hadn't escaped.
I told my Ma, and she was upset, and believed me. But she doesn't know that I still get scared being on campus, being by people I know I can't escape running into. She also lives hours away.
I've been consuming LOTS of alcohol to forget, and taking my anti-psychotic meds (I'm BiPolar) to help knock me out. I’m rarely eating and barely eating from the stress. I’ve probably lost 10 lbs in the last few weeks. I can't talk to anyone here. And I need to talk to someone.
I've tried some websites, but they make you comment or post things before you can reach a chat to actually talk to somebody. I can't make myself do those.
Can anyone help? I really feel like I’m going insane, and just thinking about what happened, I’m trembling so badly it’s getting hard to type.
The counselor I talked to was the head of that sexual assault and rape group!
Ugh, exhaustion: "sexual assault & rape support group"
Ugh, exhaustion: "sexual assault & rape support group"