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I met a friend from Europe back in 2006. At first it was nothing more than friendship. Then things started building up slowly. Around late 2008 she discovers my feelings for her. I was afraid knowing that the truth was set free. But once she knew she told me not to be ashamed and that her "heart is beating like crazy too." She also said "I can't think of a way we could share our love more, but if you do, I'm open for that." However I couldn't find a way..because of the tremendous amount of distance between us..and plus I felt awkward.
About 3 or 4 months later, while she was on vacation, we spoke and in the middle of our convo she mentions how she has a hard time logging off on me despite the fact that she's 6hours ahead in time, and half asleep on her laptop. She also revealed how she use to fantasize about us meeting and hoped to meet me in her dreams. Few weeks after that we got in the habit of falling asleep together. She kept pointing out things that were "ours" as if we were in a relationship. Several times, she's even said those 3 letter words "I love you." and almost every night we'd fall asleep together. One of those nights we were up late chit chatting and she randomly asked if i was crushing on anyone. I hesistated and said No. Then she goes "but you've been dating me every night!" I told her how I felt and she responded back saying how i make her feel good, how we help each other balance life, and how she loves my presense etc... but because of the distance she said "but i dont love you in a lovers way...because we can't hug, watch each other deep in the eye, make love, make fights, make dinner, do stuff.
" A couple of times, she kept asking me to go to her country.
The following month we were suppose to meet but plans didnt go accordingly and she was feeling depressed around that time. She started dating again and i couldn't help but feel horrible. The person she was dating didnt go far..at all. She mentioned how she was feeling "lonely" and also said "I miss having a soulmate...someone like you(me) but in reality" (that caught me off guard)
So its been a year since i really spoke to her. We send emails back and forth now. She's been busy this past year so we haven't been communicating as much as we use to. But this year I have the opportunity to finally see her after 4-5 years. Is it wise for me to go visit her for a month after so long of waiting? She knows I'm going and thinks that its awesome I'm coming and she says she cant wait but I'm extremely nervous.
About 3 or 4 months later, while she was on vacation, we spoke and in the middle of our convo she mentions how she has a hard time logging off on me despite the fact that she's 6hours ahead in time, and half asleep on her laptop. She also revealed how she use to fantasize about us meeting and hoped to meet me in her dreams. Few weeks after that we got in the habit of falling asleep together. She kept pointing out things that were "ours" as if we were in a relationship. Several times, she's even said those 3 letter words "I love you." and almost every night we'd fall asleep together. One of those nights we were up late chit chatting and she randomly asked if i was crushing on anyone. I hesistated and said No. Then she goes "but you've been dating me every night!" I told her how I felt and she responded back saying how i make her feel good, how we help each other balance life, and how she loves my presense etc... but because of the distance she said "but i dont love you in a lovers way...because we can't hug, watch each other deep in the eye, make love, make fights, make dinner, do stuff.
" A couple of times, she kept asking me to go to her country.The following month we were suppose to meet but plans didnt go accordingly and she was feeling depressed around that time. She started dating again and i couldn't help but feel horrible. The person she was dating didnt go far..at all. She mentioned how she was feeling "lonely" and also said "I miss having a soulmate...someone like you(me) but in reality" (that caught me off guard)
So its been a year since i really spoke to her. We send emails back and forth now. She's been busy this past year so we haven't been communicating as much as we use to. But this year I have the opportunity to finally see her after 4-5 years. Is it wise for me to go visit her for a month after so long of waiting? She knows I'm going and thinks that its awesome I'm coming and she says she cant wait but I'm extremely nervous.