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Man, you have it on backwards. That's number one. Number two is, you are second guessing you future with your past.
You have no cause to be playing roulette with your mental health -- or any aspect of your health. Just ask yourself, ' Why should the Marine Corps want me when I do not even know how to administer my own personal universe? ' Isn't managing oneself the apt bearing that any branch of the armed forces wishes in a recruit? Sure it is.
This trauma comes as a result of an environmental circumstance over which you had no control. You committed no crime. Second, you have no condition with which you were born that displays your having a genetic predisposition. To have been affected by it and are coming honest with it does already demonstrate to others you have made a wise first step toward your healing. The first step to healing is to know the cause of one's injury or sickness and to have the sufficient bearing and bravery to come forward with it. Don't you see that this is impressive?
Cease with you second guessing. Don't try to wield a thing that does not yet exist.
Now, back to the point about second guessing: you say that you are sure that once you solve these said issues, you will be able to join the military "perfectly." First of all there is no such scenario that yields perfection, and second to that is you must see that the mind -- even when in the pink of health -- is never in a final state of satisfaction: there is always the next step that the mind draws your attention to. The mind is like a whining child ever pining for its wants to be met. Yours is a stark example of this truth and expression.
What you are to do now is go and get the help that the better part in you is admonishing you to bring to bear. Allow that the Marine Corps wait. But in any case, say you do or don't get in the Marine Corps but have not quelled the unrest that you have undergone up to now regarding your friend's circumstance, what then?
Put first things first. The Marine Corps is scarcely the place you would want to work out these issues. You are better to go in after you have sought and received therapies than to go in without having received them at the outset and chance to ruin your whole thrust toward planning your career and life path. Conversely, if you have received treatments already before going in and are later found unsuitable, at least you will have done all that you could do initially and will have nothing to regret.
But if you go in without these and they dismiss you, that will haunt you for many seasons to come; may even hamper you for the rest of your life.
Twice you have used the word "afraid." Go get the attention you need first. By doing this, the fear will only pan out to be hollow, with which you will have considerable facility to dismiss it and move on.
People place too much emphasis on the military. Too much egoism do they invest in it. This is not necessary, because such determination is all so much shadow and echo, having little substance and meaning. The world does not stop orbiting the sun if you don't get in the services. But your world will feel indeed to have ceased orbiting if you do not now begin to know how to place your health first above all other apparent priorities.
On the matters of survival, we serve others best when we serve ourselves as well and first of all.
You have no cause to be playing roulette with your mental health -- or any aspect of your health. Just ask yourself, ' Why should the Marine Corps want me when I do not even know how to administer my own personal universe? ' Isn't managing oneself the apt bearing that any branch of the armed forces wishes in a recruit? Sure it is.
This trauma comes as a result of an environmental circumstance over which you had no control. You committed no crime. Second, you have no condition with which you were born that displays your having a genetic predisposition. To have been affected by it and are coming honest with it does already demonstrate to others you have made a wise first step toward your healing. The first step to healing is to know the cause of one's injury or sickness and to have the sufficient bearing and bravery to come forward with it. Don't you see that this is impressive?
Cease with you second guessing. Don't try to wield a thing that does not yet exist.
Now, back to the point about second guessing: you say that you are sure that once you solve these said issues, you will be able to join the military "perfectly." First of all there is no such scenario that yields perfection, and second to that is you must see that the mind -- even when in the pink of health -- is never in a final state of satisfaction: there is always the next step that the mind draws your attention to. The mind is like a whining child ever pining for its wants to be met. Yours is a stark example of this truth and expression.
What you are to do now is go and get the help that the better part in you is admonishing you to bring to bear. Allow that the Marine Corps wait. But in any case, say you do or don't get in the Marine Corps but have not quelled the unrest that you have undergone up to now regarding your friend's circumstance, what then?
Put first things first. The Marine Corps is scarcely the place you would want to work out these issues. You are better to go in after you have sought and received therapies than to go in without having received them at the outset and chance to ruin your whole thrust toward planning your career and life path. Conversely, if you have received treatments already before going in and are later found unsuitable, at least you will have done all that you could do initially and will have nothing to regret.
But if you go in without these and they dismiss you, that will haunt you for many seasons to come; may even hamper you for the rest of your life.
Twice you have used the word "afraid." Go get the attention you need first. By doing this, the fear will only pan out to be hollow, with which you will have considerable facility to dismiss it and move on.
People place too much emphasis on the military. Too much egoism do they invest in it. This is not necessary, because such determination is all so much shadow and echo, having little substance and meaning. The world does not stop orbiting the sun if you don't get in the services. But your world will feel indeed to have ceased orbiting if you do not now begin to know how to place your health first above all other apparent priorities.
On the matters of survival, we serve others best when we serve ourselves as well and first of all.