Cranberry<3
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Over the past year or so I have been unemployed and mainly laying around the house. Recently however, round the start of the year my mindset and body started to become effected. I went for days where I felt dizzy with blurred vision, a lack of energy, feeling like it was hard to breathe and that my heart was racing. I went however to get an ECG and blood tests done for the heart and they came back completely positive as the blood tests also were done to check my all around health. Shortly after that however I started getting non stop headaches. Headaches that would last every day, nearly all day if they could. If it wasn't a sharp pain it was a numbing session around my head. My doctor called them cluster headaches, declaring that they all mount from slight depression and stress that I am putting myself under.
I could understand the depression part because my friends haven't really been around all this year and I have been isolated to my room using a laptop all day trying to scan the net for work etc. The stress of not finding work and also feeling like a failure to people may also be effecting my mind. The doctor told me that I would not need any kind of anti depressants as they would make me worse than I actually was. He gave me paramax to help the headaches. While they did kinda help me, 2 days after taking them my body and mind went. The paramax caused me to almost lose my mind as it felt like millions of voices were speaking contionously, not allowing me a chance to think or anything. The paramax also made me extremely groggy and effected my insides to the point, for example, where i was dying of dehydration but I was also going to the toilet to pass water every hour or so. He then perscribed me diazepam to which I took one and no more. It also made me extremely groggy and I have been told by my family about the dangers of diazepam and how it can become very addictive.
I went back to normal headache tablets and seemingly the headaches are gone. I might have the odd ache or two like I do right now but other than that...nothing. However from laying around and also I think due to the tablets my mind and body have been effected and not in a good way. I tend to lay with my neck against the headboard of my bed as I lay and search for work, etc. Due to this I have a sore and achey back and neck. Laying about has also affected my joints. I can barely move them without them aching in pain. I started exercising again and have huge bruises up the sides of both legs due to the fact that the muscles have not been used much. All of these aches on top of the pains in the head and groggy eyes from time to time I do not know whether this is all due to a lack of exercise where the body is just breaking down or whatever.
Also my mental health seems to have taken a turn for the worse as well. I for some reason in my subconcious almost think about death and how I could go at any time and fearing that there is no afterlife is another. At 20 years of age I should not be thinking like that so I have tried everything I can to push these thoughts away. They seem to want to worry and stress me out all day when I am trying to enjoy my life. I do not know what to do. I was looking to know if anybody could give me any advice on what I should do to help overcome this mental health issue as well as restoring the rest of my body to full health. It will probably take very strong will power but I am willing to do it if it needs be. Also if anybody thinks they know what is wrong as well don't be afraid to speak up. Thank you so much for reading this and thank you in advance for any advice you give me.
I could understand the depression part because my friends haven't really been around all this year and I have been isolated to my room using a laptop all day trying to scan the net for work etc. The stress of not finding work and also feeling like a failure to people may also be effecting my mind. The doctor told me that I would not need any kind of anti depressants as they would make me worse than I actually was. He gave me paramax to help the headaches. While they did kinda help me, 2 days after taking them my body and mind went. The paramax caused me to almost lose my mind as it felt like millions of voices were speaking contionously, not allowing me a chance to think or anything. The paramax also made me extremely groggy and effected my insides to the point, for example, where i was dying of dehydration but I was also going to the toilet to pass water every hour or so. He then perscribed me diazepam to which I took one and no more. It also made me extremely groggy and I have been told by my family about the dangers of diazepam and how it can become very addictive.
I went back to normal headache tablets and seemingly the headaches are gone. I might have the odd ache or two like I do right now but other than that...nothing. However from laying around and also I think due to the tablets my mind and body have been effected and not in a good way. I tend to lay with my neck against the headboard of my bed as I lay and search for work, etc. Due to this I have a sore and achey back and neck. Laying about has also affected my joints. I can barely move them without them aching in pain. I started exercising again and have huge bruises up the sides of both legs due to the fact that the muscles have not been used much. All of these aches on top of the pains in the head and groggy eyes from time to time I do not know whether this is all due to a lack of exercise where the body is just breaking down or whatever.
Also my mental health seems to have taken a turn for the worse as well. I for some reason in my subconcious almost think about death and how I could go at any time and fearing that there is no afterlife is another. At 20 years of age I should not be thinking like that so I have tried everything I can to push these thoughts away. They seem to want to worry and stress me out all day when I am trying to enjoy my life. I do not know what to do. I was looking to know if anybody could give me any advice on what I should do to help overcome this mental health issue as well as restoring the rest of my body to full health. It will probably take very strong will power but I am willing to do it if it needs be. Also if anybody thinks they know what is wrong as well don't be afraid to speak up. Thank you so much for reading this and thank you in advance for any advice you give me.