Unable to care

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I have somehow lost literally all ability for me to care. I just don't feel any emotions. I feel drained after waking up, I feel like I am on speed when I am trying to fall asleep. I have been having nightmares of people I have never met, I am litterally lost reality from my dreams and I am forgetting things a lot more latley.

I am not on drugs, I am getting good grades, I don't hate life.

I just haven't felt anything for so long, I have lost interest in everything I still do everyday. I am so apathetic that I procrastinate things I need to do like shower, sleep, eat, wake up.

I have lost interest in girls; when a year ago I was dieing to hold hands with one even. I am not gay, the only time I feel normal is when I am laughing. I have some sort of dependancy on laughing and funny things. I strive to make people laugh and I go lengths that are unfathomable.

I don't know what to do. I want to talk to someone about my thoughts. I don't feel "different" from people and "misunderstood".. and I don't think that its going to stay like this. Some type of just communication and confessions would make me feel better.

For some reason I can't get attached to people like I used to. I used to be able to get obsessed over girls and feel good just for them to talk to me, but latley I have become more male-sterotype and I actually have no care for anyones feelings. I have become a really big fucking asshole to everyone because I don't give a rats ass at all.

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If you feel like this feeling will never go away, which is the same way I felt before sex, than you have to learn how to fake it. Fake the feelings and all of the rest of life. Pretty soon you'll buy into your own lies and life will be all well again.

So, what I really mean is get some pussy.
 
thanks for the idea on pussy but I really don't have any interest in sex even. I am hardly ever in the mood to crank one out, or do anything sexually oriented.
 
My poor confused friend, once you dive in the puss, you will know there is a reason to wake up happy every morning. That you will do all of you work happily so you can get to the pussy quicker. Plus smoke some of my avatar.
 
Just sounds like life has been kicking you in the nuts too much Chad. Give it time man, it'll very likely come back again. I understand what you mean though, it's hard to muster the energy and commitment involved to add someone to your life, only to have it fail time and time again. Good luck man.
 
I agree with JLXC. give it time.

It sounds like you've just hit a ditch in the road. A little depression, down on stuff. You might be feeling overwhelmed with some problems. It's common for people's emotional responses to get dulled when feeling overwhelmed with problems. Memory goes along with the emotions. Like you said, it's not like you get bad grades and you hate life. You still enjoy laughing, but it's the emotional attachments and memory that have been put aside. It's honestly the first thing to go when too much stress has hit you.

I'd suggest trying to give yourself a break with your normal routines. Try something new. Don't expect much. But you need some r+r for yourself to de-stress. Your problems could be stemming from any part of your life, school, friends, relationships, etc... Hopefully you can find out which one is causing you stress and you can focus on making a change to help you get some relief.
 
Good points have been made.

I never promised you a rose garden.

You want to feel again- get involved, make a change in your life. Help others. There are plenty of places that could use your help. Don't be centered on yourself all the time.
 
Thanks a lot. It will take time, and its not going to be fun.. but I have to find a way to help me work my way to a place where I can feel something besides empty and in the routine.

Whats R+R?
 
I think R+R is Rest and Relaxation.

It sounds like what you need is someone to talk to. Someone that you can pour out to, you said so yourself in your first post. It doesn't sound like you need to "confess" to certain people, it sounds like you just need to confess to someone who cares. Get a friend to talk with you, it may help kick you out of this depression.

Hope you feel better man. :happysad:
 
Allow me to welcome you to alultdhood, yea it sucks, and what you are feeling is completly normal, its called waking up, you've got better things to do than care about everthing, care about yourself and thoes close to you thats, all you need.
 
That actually sounds like a really good idea. Talking just vents my feelings and numbs the reality that someone knows what I am feeling, regardless of understanding. I just need to get my ideas straight and talk endlessly.
 
dmcsocal, fuck man, learn to type, then proofread. I mean, damn! But I digress.

Now, Chad. A lot of previous stuff made sense. Especially the part about getting involved. Help out at school or family events. Volunteer in your community. Even if you ask friends and acquaintances how they're doing and really listen to them, you're digging your way out of your funk. Take your thoughts off yourself and put them onto others. Even typing here, in a small way, can help. Interaction with others is key.

Been there lots, so I know.

Good luck, bud. :)
 
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