Today is day two substance free feel terrible

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Well today is day two. I woke up w/a headache sick to my stomach and I feel like all my muscles are screaming. All I want to do is cry...emotions are flooding. Today i will have to find a meeting. I have reached out to a few people and told them what I have been doing. I have never done that before always thought that I could handle it on my own. It is so different this time and it hurts so deep. I know that I was on a path to destruction..but using made me not feel and right now as I type this I am bawling. I see my counselor on Monday and it's time to tell her what I have been doing. I know i am rarabling...I am so glad I posted on this board...my heart goes out to all of you....it's not an easy task and we shouldn't try to go it alone.

Judy
 
Jacritch, I am also wd, but I started out tapering and I am out, but I had decreased my amount of pills alot. I have been on locets for over 10yrs. I couldn't tell my family or reach out to a program because I live in a small town and I'm well known. Keep posting and hang in there, and I know it's hard but when you really have the desire and you sound like you do, I know I do we will beat this demon. I have went ct many times because I ran out, but this time I know I want to be free and live again and not worry about how many pills I have and how I can get more, not live my life around pills. I think once your free of pills you have to learn how to live again but, I know it's worth it. Please hang in there and pray and I am praying for you and every addict in this world. LOL, Fiesty2
 
Hi Jacritch! I understand what you are feeling because I too went through benzo withdrawal from Klonopin after 7 years. The hospital that gave me a quick detox after only 3 days could have killed me because of the way they did it and my body was so painful and feverish. Please tell someone as soon as possible what you are going through because people can help. Everyone on this board has been at the point of hell at one time or another and we all care. I will say a prayer for you tonight that you have peace when you sleep and restored health. God bless and take care--Hopeto--
 
Hi Judy,

So glad you found your way here to the boarRAB.

I too had to withdraw from long-term use of benzodiazopine's as I became an 'acidental addict' over a 8-10 year period. This was a difficult time, and even more diffficult to discuss with other people who really didn't understand the horrible withdrawal feelings.

When you're feeling bad, just log on here, and people are very willing to help and listen to you. Many will possibly have great tips about how to survive this difficult time, and how to help yourself feel better. I realise this is a very difficult time for you, so please be gentle on yourself, and perhaps do a few really nice things for yourself like
1. taking a warm bath with scented oils and realaxing music.
2. walking your dog, or a neigrabroadour/friend's dog around a nice park with water.
3. doing something a bit cultural like going to a museum, gallery, exhibition,l recital.
4. having a close friend over to play carRAB or board games.

I know this probably all sounRAB a bit corny, but I found when I was going through that nasty period of withrawal, the best time to get out of your own head space, and do something that takes your mind away from how terrible you're probably feeling right now.
But, just be kind to yourself, first.

Best wishes, and do let us know how you're going.
RegarRAB, waratah
 
Hoping this is day 3 for you...hang in there, my friend. Been there done that, know that it gets easier every day, and the quality of life you lead will progressivly get better also...


peace.

jerry.
 
hello ,im new to this bored to,,your seratunion levels are very low ,that is why you are soooooooo sad ,in time they will build up again ,and you will feel alot better,,now that the pills are gone,your mind is sainy give me relief or I will be very sad,,,it ,will get better,,you say,,but when ,,THAT I dont no ,but day 5 you should feel like eating,day 6or7 you feel like ,,I can dothis ,,day 8or 9 ,,you should feel pretty good ,,,but the pills are always there,how can I live without them,,tthere my life,,,my love ,,thats where one on one ,,or meetings come in,,or you COULD relaspe,,,so stay calmn ,you can do this ,,BUT YOU HAVE TO WANT IT BAD ENOUGH....AVON44
 
Thank you so much for your kind worRAB. I just can't stop crying. The emotional piece is the hardest for me right now. I try to do something for myself today. Thanks again

Judy
 
Hi judy,
Are you doing this withdrawal 'cold turkey'?

Do you have medical support and / or a friend or support person?

This can be a very difficult time for many people.

waratah
 
hi all, i am new to this board but i just wanted to respond and tell you to hang in there! i know how emotionally drained you feel--i've been there! i am coming up on 30 days sober and can't even begin to describe the positive changes that have taken place since getting off pills! this is not to say it hasnt been hard because it def. has, but it's worth it trust me!! the thing that helped, and continues to help me the most, is remeraber to just focus on today. you're sober today and that's awsome! so remeraber to congratuate yourself on staying sober today, and worry about tomorrow, tomorrow.
 
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