This flip flop of emotions is killing me!

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Hey FrienRAB,

What a change a weekend can make! I felt so good at the end of last week and now...... lower than low. The cravings are knocking on my door so loud... I keep plugging my ears but the noise is still leaking thru.

I am exhausted from this battle... Really exhausted. I don't know how some of you have fought for years and years. It's really amazing to me.

Yesterday I stayed in bed all day. The only time I was out of bed was to use the restroom. Other than that I just tried to sleep my day away. Then I wake up today feeling over slept and in the dumps. That is not right. Times like now are the times that I miss the energy and good mooRAB the pain meRAB gave me. ALthough... I know it's wrong. My brain in just over loaded right now. I know there will be a better day though.

I hate posting stuff that is so down and out but sometimes I just need to get it out. Why are my cravings so bad again? Is it from all the stress? HELP!

Love you guys.
 
Busy, busy, busy!!! Allowing your depression to get the better of you is the wrong thing to do. I know it's hard, but you have to fight it and say, "I'm better than the depression." You need to kick those endorphines into action which will melt the depression and cravings away. Think of it and treat it like a new job and show the boss how good you are at it. The raise you'll get will be worth more than any monetary value you can think of. Think of the positives in your life. You were able to get OUT of bed - that's a positive. Look at all of the people that can't. List the positives out on a paper and you'll realize how lucky you are.

A friend of mine had very advanced diabetes and was confined to a wheelchair for a very long time. He eventually went blind and was nearly completely deaf. He ended up in bed full-time and remained in bed for over 2 years before he finally passed away. He endured massive bed sores and many bouts with pneumonia. He was worth hundreRAB of millions of dollars and said, "I'd give it all away if I could only get my health back." He was always positive, even though he knew his fate was never to get out of bed again.

How can you change some of the stressors into positive feelings? When start feeling down, catch it and keep saying to yourself, "I'm better than this!" and find something positive to do. Repeat positive affirmations.

You've come a long way and you just need to remove those negatives from your life and be positive about yourself.
 
Denon,

Thank you so very much for putting that into perspective for me. I needed it more than you could know.

Now is not the time for a pity party. It really isn't.

I just landed a very large deal at work. The biggest I have ever accomplished and I found no real joy in that.... That is not okay. I am going to make a positive list because there is no reason I am not jumping up and down for joy right now.. No reason at all.

Thank you, thank you, thank you for perspective.

You are something special buddy.
 
hi secrets,

well i just could have not asked to read a bout a better problem. im so with you right now. i had a great weekend with my family, i was feeling super, more up then had in a while. then a dropped big time today. my pain was pretty bad and i bumped into a old boyfriend who had left me when i relapsed 2 years ago. long story short the depression and anxiety had me thinking in overdrive about how i could get my hanRAB on some pills. but like you i know in the long run it will only make the depression worse. forcing yourself to get out of bed and do a few small things will be small but powerful steps. little goals, like call a friend, update your loving friend hear on the board, say a prayer, watch a utube video of babies laughing (that always helps me), go buy yourself a tiny treat, get a massage. i know money is tight but its worth it if it helps you get a bit back in your body. THIS WILL PASS, you have felt it before. so have i!!!

look forward to hearing from you tomorrow!

ox,

der
 
It should get easier with time. You just have to stay sober long enough to allow your brain and body to get used to being sober. After a couple of months sober, I really began to appreciate my sobriety and finally began to hate what alcohol (my drug of choice) was doing to me. In the beginning, I would start out excited to quit and then I would miss it and go back, but eventually I did stay sober longer and realized that it gets easier and it's worth it. Just try to hang in there through the toughest part. Try and find something to do. Sitting around thinking about is the worst thing possible!!
 
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