Violet Amadeus
New member
Can someone please help make sense of what and why I`m feeling this way
I have a few assignments due tomorrow and next week and I`m TOTALLY freaking out!!!...well..not really. I`m telling myself that I should be freaking out but I have this sort of eerie calmness. Usually I feel panicked and scared with my whole mind, body and soul but now I have this detached feeling. I don`t know why, I just don`t care. I think it`s a conscience thing because I`ve been doing some major skipping but I don`t care. I know that my behaviour is inexcusable and disrespectful but...I...just don`t care. What is wrong with me?? Recently I also haven't felt true guilt about a few seriously messed up things I've done- I acted guilty, told myself to feel guilt but at a deeper level I didn't feel that way. It feels like I'm acting. Have the seeds of anti social behavior been planted in my mind??
I also have considered myself a very empathetic person but now I feel like I'm not, like it's all an act. What's wrong with me? I've felt that I have had to put on this mask of indifference so that people don't have power over me anymore-(caring what people think of me etc.) I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety in the past but now I'm thinking it's just an act-like I've forced my mind/body to feel anxious or depressed but again, at a deeper level I wasn't;I just feel hollow, empty. Anyone who`s experienced this can you explain-
I have a few assignments due tomorrow and next week and I`m TOTALLY freaking out!!!...well..not really. I`m telling myself that I should be freaking out but I have this sort of eerie calmness. Usually I feel panicked and scared with my whole mind, body and soul but now I have this detached feeling. I don`t know why, I just don`t care. I think it`s a conscience thing because I`ve been doing some major skipping but I don`t care. I know that my behaviour is inexcusable and disrespectful but...I...just don`t care. What is wrong with me?? Recently I also haven't felt true guilt about a few seriously messed up things I've done- I acted guilty, told myself to feel guilt but at a deeper level I didn't feel that way. It feels like I'm acting. Have the seeds of anti social behavior been planted in my mind??
I also have considered myself a very empathetic person but now I feel like I'm not, like it's all an act. What's wrong with me? I've felt that I have had to put on this mask of indifference so that people don't have power over me anymore-(caring what people think of me etc.) I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety in the past but now I'm thinking it's just an act-like I've forced my mind/body to feel anxious or depressed but again, at a deeper level I wasn't;I just feel hollow, empty. Anyone who`s experienced this can you explain-