The more I exercise, the more unhappy I am with myself in the mirror.?

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gonecrazy4nothin

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Here is a couple things to tell yourself...
Guys hate girls who are too thin, they find them disgusting to look at.
Being too thin and still losing weight can eventually kill you.

Youare not fat unless you are bigger than me and I am 230 lbs at 5'6" nd im 20. so i doubt you are actually fat.
 
I know I have body image problems. I usually run at least 20 miles a week and eat a clean diet. I have lost 18 lbs and am still losing weight. I am at 127 lbs and 5 ft 4 inches. When I look at myself in the mirror, naked, I am disgusted by myself. It is as if I am STILL that fat girl. Nothing has changed. I am completely grossed out by myself and when I see other women who are attractive, I feel so low. So low.

I have tried to think positive but all I do is mentally beat myself up for being ugly, useless, and unattractive to men. Yes, I had an abusive childhood and my father was not in the picture. I am pretty sure this has something to do with it.

I throw up my meals a few times a month. I punish myself with more exercise (I enjoy the runner's high), but I wonder - when am I ever going to be satisfied? Never. I keep telling myself 115 is the goal.

I have diverted my attention by volunteering, studying, etc, but at the end of the day, I just want to get my running in. Seeing a shrink and taking anti-d's didn't help a whole lot.
 
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