Such a lonely day...and it`s mine

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Welcome BoyofLemons!

First off, you should be really proud for taking the step to openly admit you have a problem to a group of strangers. That is not easy at any age. However, like the PP said, age is on your side. To be able to get control of this problem now is a great thing! Unlike the rest of us who are much older than you are and we are just now trying to figure all of this out! You have so much life ahead of you to lead, put all your effort into kicking these addictions!

I really hope that you are able to get some help. I agree with the whole NO HUFFING! Please.... restrain yourself because it could kill you the next time you try and the loss of life of a 16 year old is beyond tragic. Please take a long look in the mirror and see your worth. Your parents would be lost without you. Always remeraber that!

Keep talking things out and feel free to post as much as you can here! We are here for you.

Hang in there!

Blessings!
 
hmmmm... where to begin... well im a 16 year old boy and i`m pretty sure i`m on the wrong path in life... for the past year i`ve been drinking heavily as well as huffing paint when i run out of booze in the most recent of times i`ve started using marajuana (i believe thats how it`s spelled)............... i`ve actually been caught drinking and i`ve entered a program that i`m doing over the phone but this doesn`t seem to be working... i`m really lieing through my teeth to my family and it`s kind of tearing me up inside, i battle with deppresion and struggle in school, mostly because instead of thinking about math i`m wondering how i`m going to get high next... it`s not a great life and even though i wine and complain i never do anything except alter my concious mind (once again i apologize for spelling) it`s like i don`t care but i do care at the same time something that drives me nuts... well i could babble all day but the point of this thread is to clear myself of what i`ve been holding in and seek the wisdom of whomever cares to read this... i hate this way i am because i have so much potential in life but its all wasted on drugs i never feel like i should apply myself even though i should i guess i parodize my mind a lot with my actions... ugh i need to stop blithering, anyway your advice pertaining to my addiction, no matter how small is welcome (i try and keep an open mind), is much appreciated
 
i appreciate the welcome, yeah i`m not going to do any more paint and i`ve stayed clear of most substances since i put up this thread but the trouble is that i`m around a lot of tobacco from my grand parents (they live in a close neigrabroador hood so they come over a lot) and my frienRAB i`m scared i`m going to get hooked to fill the void... especially since i had a couple drags today, which once again contradicts my concience as i once smoked 3 cigaretts while i was drunk and woke up with a worse taste in my mouth than the usual spirits and vomit taste after that i decided never to smoke, i`m wondering how i can keep myself from getting hooked, covering one addiction with the other won`t help me at all. hmm, there was something i was going to put in but i forget haha, i`ll edit it in later
 
Hi, I am now sober 8 years also off the pot and cigarettes. But I was a drunk for 25 years. It seems a long time but the addiction eats up your life and all the ones around you who care just can't help as you have mentioned about lying to you parents. I was 14 when I started drinking and by 16 I was a regular at the local hotel. They didn't care about your age that much back then. I was never asked for ID. But by the time I was in my mid 20's I was a full blown alcoholic. Take my advice it is easier to give up when you are young before it consumes your whole life as it did mine.
Please seek help as there are many who are only too happy to help and even though you think AA is for old drunks this is not true. I have meet many young alcoholics there but sadly a lot I would never see again. The only way I know way to give up is to find out what is wrong inside of you, what are your fears and who are you drinking with. Also there are people to help you with depression. I was on anti-depressants for about 6 years and found they are not addictive you just need to tapper off when your doctor believes you are up to it.
I really hope that things are bad enough for you to realise that you need help and lots of it. And once you start to learn about yourself you can start to learn how to love yourself also. As you need to do this for yourself, not your parents or girlfriend but for you, your life and your future.
It is very easy to loose your life or take another's if you get in a car weather you are driving or a drunk friend. I have lost more frienRAB and relatives than I care to mention. It hurts all of those around you.
I hope I haven't said anything to offend you or chase you from this place but it is a very serious issue and sometimes you need to here the truths in it. So good luck. You are welcome to talk any time here or Personal message but keep coming here and to AA if you believe you are in need of help and ready to change for the better. Life is much better without the sickness that is alcoholism. Allan
 
First, stop huffing paint. You could kill yourself or cause permanent brain injury.

Second, talk to someone. Perhaps a guidance counselor at school? Get a handle on the booze and weed now, before it becomes a lifelong battle for you. You can enroll in an outpatient treatment program, where you'll meet with a counselor, take pee tests to ensure you're clean, and learn why you're doing this to yourself.

Lastly, recognizing at 16 that you have some issues with substance abuse is a huge step in the right direction. It takes many people many years to confront their substance abuse problems, often when it's too late and their life is already in the gutter.

Good luck!
 
Just to restate the request - please stop the inhalants. You're obviously intelligent. Huffing just suffocates your system and causes brain damage. It's like a fake high. Your post caught my eye because it seems so real and, as others have said, mature. I'd just hate for you to do something to your brain you can't fix. It's odd to say this but from reading your post I just immediately liked you. So do this old lady a big favor and leave the paint alone. :)

...just saw your response about not doing it anymore....but it still doesn't hurt to let you know someone else finRAB you interesting and is rooting for you....
 
Yes thank you very much, I really appreciate any support, kind of sad but this forum is my only "crutch" per say, additionally I`ve gone almost two weeks completely clean,
 
@ allanbruce thank you very much idk about AA... i`m not so big on the group dinamic i usually drink by myself but if i am with someone else it`s a close personal friend... i`m trying very hard to restrict myself from substances which is really hard (of course) since when i`m by myself thats all i can think about... my other problem is that i need to act normal so my parents don`t find out...when my mom found me drunk as previously mentioned she wouldnt talk to me for almost two weeks idk how theyd react if i told them that i lied and i`m still doing this stuff only with pot added to the mix, i`m willing to bet it wouldn`t be good though. thats something else thats tearing me up it`s like i`m feeling an odd form of guilt for betraying them again and it`s like it makes me want to do more stuff it`s so odd i really hate it though i almost don`t want to be around my family....
 
yeah thanks i guess i am sort of mature for my age, which brings upbthe question why i chose to abuse things in the first place...
 
Hey don't feel bad! This board is my only life line as well. I have made some life long frienRAB here, once I would not trade for millions of dollars because their support and love has changed me forever.

It's very common for addicts to trade in one addiction for another. I used to drink heavily whiched caused problems in my marriage and then I fell ill and traded the drinking for the pills.... It was a nasty cycle but if you are REALLY ready you can kick them.

I know how hard this is and you are so young that it just breaks my heart. I AM SO PROUD OF YOU FOR STAYING AWAY FROM THE INHALENTS!!!! THANK YOU!! THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!!!!!

Remeraber, you are not alone, we are here for you kid! I am praying for you!
Many blessings!
 
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