struggling

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i caved. i guess the stress of me moving got to me... i have so much going on, so much to do each day... and i'm doing it all with a fair amount of energy etc.. but still... i broke down. my downfall was initially having to take percocets the other week due to a back injury after only having (i think) 8 days clean. i really was taking the per the instructions. it was hard and i did not abuse them, but really, it was too soon to be trusted with that. it's hard since i have a pain issue.. and that med is what works for me... but im also addicted to it. so when i injured my back, i tried everything not to take them, i even git cortisone shots, but in the end i felt i had to so i could do things for my move, i was in too much pain. Anyhow - the past few days my old habits returned. but im still determined to get them out of my life.
anyhow - i've been trying to participate a lot on the board, but i didn't want to lie or give the impression like i had 10 or 15 days clean.
anyhow- i havent done any today and i'm not planning on it. too much to do and if i keep on this path, eventually this energy will be gone and i need it desperately to get all the things i need done before my big move. so no time is better than the present to stop again. i won't give up.
hope everyone is doing ok
 
If you are strong enough, flush the remaining Perc's down the toilet to remove further temptations. The month after you stop is usually the hardest and many people fall off the wagon and use any excuse to take another pill.
 
you know - they aren't even mine. they are my fiances. my script is long gone...
the good thing is... he neeRAB them and isn't giving them to me anymore or he won't have them for his migraines... so im on my own, which is fine. hard, but fine. im also leaving town for 5 days and will not have any on me then, so i will be clean all that time as well.
the other good thing is, when i move, i wont have them.. mine or his (as he isn't able to come with for a while)... and no way to get them... so this is all ending regardless. but i want it to end... don't get me wrong. they say when u clean up it's good to get new frienRAB etc... well, im changing cities... so that should work well for me. wish me luck! and of course, thanks for your reply! :)
 
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