Struggling to find manhood?

[Darrin G]

I'm a 19 year old male. Never had a father or any type of male figure in my life. My mom raised me. I have no brothers, but two older sisters. I never had a girlfriend. I was living blind for a long time until I recently realized I have low self esteem and confidence. And little discipline. I missed out on alot of important things that a boy needs to learn to become a man. And everybody in the family views me and treats me like a kid living under my moms shadow. No one knows my struggle. I just want to have a normal man's life and prove to everyone and myself that I'm a man and deserve to be treated like one. But my mom and sisters won't let me. They continue to view me as a kid but all my cousins are similar age to me and their viewed as men. I can see it. I feel lost. Not knowing how to walk in my own shoes as a man. How can I succeed and prove to myself and everyone I'm a man.