OK, so never in my life have I ever wanted children. Ever. Not even with my first husband (now divorced).
But I do have a strong crush on someone, and I have such a vivid image of our child (hoping this doesn't sound too psycho). It's unsettling because I've had crushes all my life on men, and never have I thought about having kids with anyone or something didn't feel right about having kids with whoever I fantasized about or anyone I was actually dating. But with this man, it feels very right. I don't know what to do with my crush either. We work in professional setting and I've only really only spoken to him a few times and there definitely is a chemistry between us and we have so much in common, its a little bewildering.
The weirdes thing is I had a dream of our kid. I saw a picture of my crush working, and an Indian came up to me and said if I finally wanted to meet my son (the son is 14 at this time in the dream). The son is having problems of some sort. The Indian tells me to follow him to a bridge and I'll get to see him. I follow the Indian to the bridge but by the time I get there I wake up, so I didn't actually get a chance to meet my son in the dream.
I feel absolute cuckoo for this and trying to find rationality in this. Is it because I'm 33 years old and just projecting a huge fantasy or is there something underlying to this?
But I do have a strong crush on someone, and I have such a vivid image of our child (hoping this doesn't sound too psycho). It's unsettling because I've had crushes all my life on men, and never have I thought about having kids with anyone or something didn't feel right about having kids with whoever I fantasized about or anyone I was actually dating. But with this man, it feels very right. I don't know what to do with my crush either. We work in professional setting and I've only really only spoken to him a few times and there definitely is a chemistry between us and we have so much in common, its a little bewildering.
The weirdes thing is I had a dream of our kid. I saw a picture of my crush working, and an Indian came up to me and said if I finally wanted to meet my son (the son is 14 at this time in the dream). The son is having problems of some sort. The Indian tells me to follow him to a bridge and I'll get to see him. I follow the Indian to the bridge but by the time I get there I wake up, so I didn't actually get a chance to meet my son in the dream.
I feel absolute cuckoo for this and trying to find rationality in this. Is it because I'm 33 years old and just projecting a huge fantasy or is there something underlying to this?