stress and std's

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brewskibabe84

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Ok Iam tweaking out. I ussualy stress out after having sex with a girl because im scared of std's. Well this time I had sex with a black girl and i used a condom but im afraid that her juice went through my shaven area and gave me hiv, I shaved 5 hours before sex and I had a lil razer cut like 1 drop of blood came out when I shaved, Im afraid that it didnt heal in 5 hours.This Was my first time with a full african girl . Im soo afraid.; Yesterday I didnt sleep all night and my dad wouldnt let me sleep and I had to wait i was sleep deprived walkin sleep. Then I finally sleep 2' hours later and I wake up and i have a minor fever. I was soo tweaking out i cried and just started thinking of how im going to dieand thought I had hiv and couldnt even listne to my music because it seemed to loud and couldnt do anything to relax.But When I talked to this girl on the phone, I felt soo much better. I went to sleep. THen I wake up this morning refreshed didnt feel bad but 10 min later I couldnt stop thinking about death in my bed and I just felt so nervous so twitchy I coudlnt relax and I couldnt eat much I had no appetite. Im writing you this 1 hour after I woke up since I cant even think right. Is this all stress related because im scaring my self or are they related to hiv? While im writing this i feel better but I feel really really shaky. I have no swolen lymph nodes or sore throat or pain except except when I was talking to the girl for hours my elbow felt pain because it seemed that I needed to stretch it because holding the phone to me ear...... I have always been called a hyperchrondiac by my mom since I always freak out im going to die about everything but this time I feel bad. I want to just lay down and I feel like I have 200 lbs hangin on me just because I cant stop thinking about death today and yesterday


I also think i have adhd or add. because in school I coudlnt stay in regular classes because I would just go in my lil world while the teacher tryed to teach the lesson. but I took my act and scored good so im not dumb just cant be patient or stay focused very long.
 
I have read your post, and to be honest, i think you are worrying unnecessarily....

Your worry is based on a lot of 'what ifs'......

You are suffering from Anxiety, and Anxiety can be a very very severe illness in itself.

Ask yourself this question: When somebody tells you something positive about something you are worrying about, for example, my reply above, do you feel better?

If you do, then it has already got hold of you and you need to break the loop. You are requiring 'others' to release you each time from your anxiety, which is not good.....

I don't want to sound like i'm being horrible to you, i am actually trying to help.

Everybody dies one day, that is inevitable, its not 'if', its 'when'....

There are also no guarantees in life......about anything.

There are also a lot worse things around than HIV....

'If' you had contracted HIV, the drugs that are available now to treat the disease will enable you to reach an almost normal life expectancy.

However, its not the same with other diseases like Cancer, or even Heart Attacks, one Heart Attack and it could be 'game over', you might not have the time to see a doctor and be given drugs....

Stop worrying and enjoy life whilst you are still young;)
 
You're freaking out due to guilt. The chances of you contracting anything are nearly zero. You need to let it go, chalk it up to experience and move on. Always wear a condom and know who you're sleeping with. You should never have to worry again. Also, both of you can go get tested for everything and put your fears to rest.
 
WoW I feel alot better just reading this. I still have a lil fever and aches but I think it could be no sleeping for 24 hours. Yah I ussualy freak out like this after every time I had sex, This time I'am done with having sex unless I really really love the girl. Hopefully I can put this behind me and I will get tested to make sure everything is good

but So its really low chance to get a std from her wet coming down on to my shaving area??? even if I had a razer cut 5 hours before like a normal small 1 that doesnt make a scab that makes like 1 drop of blood come out...

Yah I think I'am going to get medicine for my hyperchrondiac. because I'am nervous about anything seriouse.. My brother has to go to hospital and put to sleep to check his intestines. And I was freaking out afraid hes going to die and praying that kill me instead of him.. I HAVE NEVER TOLD ANY1 THIS STUFF but I do freak out over lil things... idk why either.

btw We only had sex 1 time because I'am a tweaker.. and the symptons 2 weeks later that is why I freaked . I freaked like this before but this was way worse just because she is from africa and we did it in france.. anyways thanks to all you.. Im glad I didnt kill myself I was thinking about it
 
Dear Krackajack, I definately think you are having anxiety. I have had it on and off for years. Guilt does it too. Get some help for that. You WILL be ok!!
As far as STD's they are real and everyone should be protective of themselves. But as far as contracting them you wouldn't even show signs that quick. OK! HIV takes 6 months to even show up on a blood tests and even then you may not have symptoms for months or years. Other STDS like herpes etc...2 to 6 weeks for an outbreak after exposure. You are talking about the day after. Relax...and just remember to use protection and know your partner. You are worrying WAY too much. I am just saying that too because I have layed in bed and worried about dying. It happened alot when I was being permiscuios. Just try and be careful and deal with your anxiety. ALL the BEST to you!!:angel:
 
all these symptons happened right after not sleeping for 24 hours which was 2 days ago and was 2 weeks from when i had sex.. I losed all my fatigue and tiredness and my fever is like gone when i read that its just my anxiety , but yah I was 2 weeks after.. So thats why I tweaked because I heard you get symptons after 2 weeks
 
Just one question...Would you have been this worked up if she had been white? You were quick to tell us she was black....that has nothing to do with picking up an STD. That's just plain nasty. Did you show her this thread?
 
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