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Day 1: I recieve notice from a friend that my ex has made a threat to off herself. I was an hour away with not enough gas to get back to my hometown that day so I began to stress. I couldn't get a hold of her to ask what the fuck she was doing. I didn't sleep much.

Day 2: I had a "reminder" that I'm not well yet. Nothing like pouring a cup of coffee then having a seizure. It'll remind you of many things and freak you out. I suggest anyone who doesn't appreciate life tries it. You'll all of a sudden want to live more fully. Inthis moment of clarity I see that my ex has sent me an email. She's fine. "What a bitch", I think to myself.

Day 3: Seizure again. That and it's 103*. Lovely. I get bored and come up with an idea for my muse and I. She likes games and honesty. I decide to combine the two. We ask questions back and forth and it's fun upm until "Do I worry about my health?" I let her know what's been happening.

Day 4: Again a bad start. I double my pill does to control it and pass out on my friend's couch. I get a call that my little bro is having some "problems".

Day 5: I have a really bad seizure. I chat on WTF for a bit then go to bed.

Day 6 (Today): My muse informs me that we won't go anywhere from here. She tells me she can't handle being a true friend to me. She apologizes for leading me on and explains that she just really enjoyed my attention at first. And that she likes most of it but does not like the parts of it that make her feel like she should be trying back. She tells me that my past is pretty much my scarlet letter. I end up staying up until god knows when. I cry off and on. I'm alone. There is no one who truly cares it feels. I joke about being emo right now but I am.

Why can't shit stop? Why all in the same week?
 
=( I'm so sorry!!

If this helps to calm you a little bit, people who really want to kill themselves don't ever want to be found out, and therefore the only ones who tell people are the ones looking for attention from it, rather than a true way out..

Karma has a way of fixing things, I hope you all the best.
 
Perhaps I'm just a simple poet who does not deserve her? Either way I can't make sense of women right now.

At least OMF is getting back together. And we're actually going to try to pu an album out. That's a small + this week.
 
Zip up your mansuit boy! Who cares if she feels insecure about how you are helping her so much that she feels the need to return the favor. It just sounds like she doesn't want to depend on you too much. Other than that I've never had a seizure but they definately don't sound enjoyable in the least bit so... :hug2: get better soon boy! :)
 
Shitty week man, sorry to hear it. I don't have any advice for you, but we here at WTF do care. Some of us anyway. All of us have been through some shit, and we've all felt alone, and felt like no one cares.... Maybe I shouldn't speak for everyone, but I certainly have. I feel for you man, and I hope things get better.
 
That sounds like a shitty week. I know how much it hurts to deal with suicidal people, it really sucks. But you will make it through it, and like what the rest of them said, us here at WTF care.

It must suck to have seizures, I have never had one myself, but hopefully your medicine will work. Hope you feel better soon.
 
yeah dude, you really just gotta relax. it sounds so hard, but just find some time to really spend with you and your life. Even though everyone around you including yourself seems to falter. Nothings ever lost. Theres still greatness and love, and youve got it all, even if theres too much shit going on to realize it. If thats how fate needs your life to be right now, just go with it. As for the seizures, i know those are shitty, unlike a lot of people. I had them for like a year, not real bad ones, like shoot-into-the-air-shooting-lazers-from-my-eyes-and-flailing-my-arms bad, but they werent a pleasent sight. There never really seems to be a silver lining behind this one but, idk, maybe run into a group of 6 year olds and hope fate has a good sense of humor. But anyways, people always tend to focus on the negative aspects of their lives, and not the positive ones. We're all here for you bro. WTF is on your team.
 
Aye, and you never will. :D

Put on some Bob Marley, smoke a fatty, lay down for about 20 minutes and tell yourself that everything will be okay. Because it will be... everything always works out, babe. :thumbsup:

At least you don't have to menstruate. :rolleyes:

""Don't worry 'bout a thing, 'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!" - Bob Marley
 
lol. I'm clean now though. So that's out of the question. So my muse/ex-muse/wtf? is mad because I put out an ad that she thought was a personal attack against her and she got defensive and upset and god knows what.

I think she's on her period. Maybe that's what's up.
 
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