Hi, angel i also have grade 4 spondy,iam 50 years old,and still cant beleave it or should i say i still cant accept it.my life is very limited,i really am watching everybody else live their lives through the window.i have done alot of research and i am left under the impression that most people end up in more pain then they started with,alot of problems are the adhesions,which is scar tissue that builRAB up and causes horrible pain.what kind of surgery are they suggesting for you a fusion,that seems to be the big thing now.I am on timed released morhine(advinza),lyrica,cyrabalta,oxycodone for breakthrough pain,xanx,wow i didnt ralize how much untill i seen it in print,but it has helped tremendlesly.i also have cevical disc disease,lumar spinal listhesis and severe spinal stenosis on bothe the left and right side worse on the left,some days i cant get out of bed,except to feed pets.how about you how has this effected your life,iam so sorry that you are going threw this,doesnt seem like nobody gets the kind of pain that your in?well sorry so long its dreary outside and i am having a pity party.LOL. feel beter,you are not alone. marywoo