please take time and read because im a little messed up on this one....
so i have been dating girls since the age of 15 always been a fan and i love women, incredibly attracted to the female form but somewhere along the road i found it exciting to dress up as a women when i was home alone(very sheltered life living in the country with nothing but fields for miles) this got me off when i would do "certain things" fine you know what i bought a dildo and used it and not sure if i liked but i frequently used it. whenever i would break up with girls i would break it out within a couple days and i would feel comfortable doing this. But i dont find men attractive in the slightest. i tried my best but wasnt feelin it(ha!) i would frequent hotel room with this large dildo and be all dressed up like a slutty chick and really get off on it. anyway every once in a while i think about doin it again but im dating a chick who i am madly in love with, attracted to physically and we have excellent sex or so i am told in messages while im at work. she wants to get married and im all for that but really confused. anyone with a decent response please let me know and please nothing rude because being like this right now is very difficult...what should i do??
so i have been dating girls since the age of 15 always been a fan and i love women, incredibly attracted to the female form but somewhere along the road i found it exciting to dress up as a women when i was home alone(very sheltered life living in the country with nothing but fields for miles) this got me off when i would do "certain things" fine you know what i bought a dildo and used it and not sure if i liked but i frequently used it. whenever i would break up with girls i would break it out within a couple days and i would feel comfortable doing this. But i dont find men attractive in the slightest. i tried my best but wasnt feelin it(ha!) i would frequent hotel room with this large dildo and be all dressed up like a slutty chick and really get off on it. anyway every once in a while i think about doin it again but im dating a chick who i am madly in love with, attracted to physically and we have excellent sex or so i am told in messages while im at work. she wants to get married and im all for that but really confused. anyone with a decent response please let me know and please nothing rude because being like this right now is very difficult...what should i do??