i have depression & depersonalisation. im seeing things and hearing voices. i have mixed emotions.. i can switch myself from happy to sad to whatever i feel depending on the people im around.
when im with my family... i partly hate and feel threatend and dont no who my fiance's family are. and if im with my fiance's family i dont no who my family are they are strangers and i feel threatened by them. i have my fiance's parents over wednsday and im sh*tting myself because i feel scared. i wont b able to sit in the same room as them il end up having a knife in my pocket just in case they will hurt me or steal or no what im thinking.
i also was laying in bed the other night and i had a little girl sitting in the corner of the room staring at me, and the room felt like it was moving windows floors etc... and someone was whispering in my ear saying terrible things.... i felt insects running over my skin.... i was petified!
i think the devil is out to get me.... hes told me he will see me soon as my time is coming as he will make my death very long and painful.
everyone is reading my mind. i feel threatned by everyone. i self harm sometimes .. i get told to and forced i think someone is controlling me..
the government has bugged my phone i wont answer the phone anymore because i think they are listebing and also i **** myself when im around cctv cameras ... i dont know whos watchn me i hate it.. i always feel like there is someone in the room with me .... im so scared!!!!
im seeing a pychiatrist and im on cymbalta 60mg ... but i dont have the mental state to take them my fiance gives me them everyday. i also do everything i can to avoid the appointments.
when im with my family... i partly hate and feel threatend and dont no who my fiance's family are. and if im with my fiance's family i dont no who my family are they are strangers and i feel threatened by them. i have my fiance's parents over wednsday and im sh*tting myself because i feel scared. i wont b able to sit in the same room as them il end up having a knife in my pocket just in case they will hurt me or steal or no what im thinking.
i also was laying in bed the other night and i had a little girl sitting in the corner of the room staring at me, and the room felt like it was moving windows floors etc... and someone was whispering in my ear saying terrible things.... i felt insects running over my skin.... i was petified!
i think the devil is out to get me.... hes told me he will see me soon as my time is coming as he will make my death very long and painful.
everyone is reading my mind. i feel threatned by everyone. i self harm sometimes .. i get told to and forced i think someone is controlling me..
the government has bugged my phone i wont answer the phone anymore because i think they are listebing and also i **** myself when im around cctv cameras ... i dont know whos watchn me i hate it.. i always feel like there is someone in the room with me .... im so scared!!!!
im seeing a pychiatrist and im on cymbalta 60mg ... but i dont have the mental state to take them my fiance gives me them everyday. i also do everything i can to avoid the appointments.