Curtis william Bevan
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Ok it may sound weird but it is the truth, i just want to know if i went through a 'immaturity' phase when i was 16.
Ok, i am 17 now but during halfway last year i did stuff with my toys.
I had a whole box of Lego and Bionicle, i loved it and was over the moon with it. I enjoyed it but felt unsatisfied with it, so to amuse myself, i kept robbing reb pens and markers from school to draw all over my Bionicles weapons and Legomen. I enjoyed thinking that my Bionicle had blood on their weapons, i also imagined one Bionicle killing another Bionicle and doing the correct amount of blood wht would come out if a limb was chopped off e.g a hand was cut off, it would not spray but wll bleed heavily, so after that little phase of drawing blood all over my Bionicles, i moved on to drawing blood on my tables in my bedroom. I can see fake blood stains drawn with my red marker all over my table. My dad was curious to why there are red pen marks all over the toys but i say that i was bored. I remember when i got a action man from McDonalds. It was a scuba diver type, i was excited to play with it. But when i got home i got a knife and started doing big gashes in it, cut a hand off.I then put red marker over the marks that look like wounds, i used to pretened that the action man was tortured.
I moved on, and targeted my Legomen. You know Starwars Episode 3 where Anakin gets burnt? Well i wanted to reanact that with my Lego men, i burnt my lego men in the bathroom when i was alone and enjoyed watching them. I burnt all sorts, Harry Potter, Ron Weasley, Draco, Spiderman and random creations, i burnt alot. I'm surprised my dad never foundt out.
Anyway, still on the subject of burning Legomen, i started feeling sexual and needed to masturbate after burning my Legomen. I did, and did this multiple times, possibly everyday for a week. By now, i have no Legomen left.
I left this stage and forgot about it. But when i was home alone again, i saw an apple. I remember trying to reanact Kenny from SouthPark being beheaded. So i got multiple knives and started stabbing the apple, from pretending i was slicing someones neck to pretending i was torturing the apple with toothpicks. I did this with many apples, still, my parents never noticed a thing. I also used to cut up grapes.
Not sure when this happened but i spotted little blue grape like things, very small but when broke, it leaks a purplish red colour and it stains your fingers and clothes badly.
Anyway, after school i occaisionaly go to this bush where this things are and collect tons of them. When i get home i wait for my parents to go to work and i do a little war with them.i pretened that they hold toothpicks as weapons and make them stab other of the little blue things, i don't know why but i was fascinated with the blood like liquid they leak after they are penetrated. Once again, after each play session i feel the need to masturbate, so i do. One last thing i need tyo discuss was that i was mesmerised by the blo like liquid that i watched the fruit things or whatever they are 'bleed' in the sink filled with water, i would watch the red/purple liquid swim around.
Just curious why i had these urges to stab things anyone know or was i just simple childish despite i was 16?
I never actually shared this with anyone before but i just remembered it and i was curious to why i had urges to do this for 2 years. I am being serious and genuine so if your gonna say some stupid remark then leave, i askeda serious so please reply with a serious answer or answers.
Ok, i am 17 now but during halfway last year i did stuff with my toys.
I had a whole box of Lego and Bionicle, i loved it and was over the moon with it. I enjoyed it but felt unsatisfied with it, so to amuse myself, i kept robbing reb pens and markers from school to draw all over my Bionicles weapons and Legomen. I enjoyed thinking that my Bionicle had blood on their weapons, i also imagined one Bionicle killing another Bionicle and doing the correct amount of blood wht would come out if a limb was chopped off e.g a hand was cut off, it would not spray but wll bleed heavily, so after that little phase of drawing blood all over my Bionicles, i moved on to drawing blood on my tables in my bedroom. I can see fake blood stains drawn with my red marker all over my table. My dad was curious to why there are red pen marks all over the toys but i say that i was bored. I remember when i got a action man from McDonalds. It was a scuba diver type, i was excited to play with it. But when i got home i got a knife and started doing big gashes in it, cut a hand off.I then put red marker over the marks that look like wounds, i used to pretened that the action man was tortured.
I moved on, and targeted my Legomen. You know Starwars Episode 3 where Anakin gets burnt? Well i wanted to reanact that with my Lego men, i burnt my lego men in the bathroom when i was alone and enjoyed watching them. I burnt all sorts, Harry Potter, Ron Weasley, Draco, Spiderman and random creations, i burnt alot. I'm surprised my dad never foundt out.
Anyway, still on the subject of burning Legomen, i started feeling sexual and needed to masturbate after burning my Legomen. I did, and did this multiple times, possibly everyday for a week. By now, i have no Legomen left.
I left this stage and forgot about it. But when i was home alone again, i saw an apple. I remember trying to reanact Kenny from SouthPark being beheaded. So i got multiple knives and started stabbing the apple, from pretending i was slicing someones neck to pretending i was torturing the apple with toothpicks. I did this with many apples, still, my parents never noticed a thing. I also used to cut up grapes.
Not sure when this happened but i spotted little blue grape like things, very small but when broke, it leaks a purplish red colour and it stains your fingers and clothes badly.
Anyway, after school i occaisionaly go to this bush where this things are and collect tons of them. When i get home i wait for my parents to go to work and i do a little war with them.i pretened that they hold toothpicks as weapons and make them stab other of the little blue things, i don't know why but i was fascinated with the blood like liquid they leak after they are penetrated. Once again, after each play session i feel the need to masturbate, so i do. One last thing i need tyo discuss was that i was mesmerised by the blo like liquid that i watched the fruit things or whatever they are 'bleed' in the sink filled with water, i would watch the red/purple liquid swim around.
Just curious why i had these urges to stab things anyone know or was i just simple childish despite i was 16?
I never actually shared this with anyone before but i just remembered it and i was curious to why i had urges to do this for 2 years. I am being serious and genuine so if your gonna say some stupid remark then leave, i askeda serious so please reply with a serious answer or answers.