I see young people like me and I think how pathetic they are.
But then I go on and fantasize about having a relationship, hugging, kissing, owning a big house together, closeness. But I know the second I get bored (which wouldn't take long) I'd most likely throw a fight with them just for the fun of it, then apologize just to see what they would take from me.
Is this normal? I know I'm a sociopath, don't try to tell me I'm not. Seeking professional help is not an option, I don't trust those people.
(p.s does anyone know and sociopath forums that aren't full of empaths..and that aren't dead)
I should probably add I'm relatively young and I've never really had a sex drive, but lately I do fantasize about those things.
I'm in university and will only go after the intelligent ones, the ones I know will be successful.
I do not have a fear of getting close to people, I am close to people, just not personally. I'm secretive, like most sociopaths are. I'd betray them in a second if I had a motive, I'd steal and not care, sabotage their grades, I don't care.
But then I go on and fantasize about having a relationship, hugging, kissing, owning a big house together, closeness. But I know the second I get bored (which wouldn't take long) I'd most likely throw a fight with them just for the fun of it, then apologize just to see what they would take from me.
Is this normal? I know I'm a sociopath, don't try to tell me I'm not. Seeking professional help is not an option, I don't trust those people.
(p.s does anyone know and sociopath forums that aren't full of empaths..and that aren't dead)
I should probably add I'm relatively young and I've never really had a sex drive, but lately I do fantasize about those things.
I'm in university and will only go after the intelligent ones, the ones I know will be successful.
I do not have a fear of getting close to people, I am close to people, just not personally. I'm secretive, like most sociopaths are. I'd betray them in a second if I had a motive, I'd steal and not care, sabotage their grades, I don't care.