Social Problems?

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Sorry if this post seems really pathetic, but I really need to tell someone..

Im a 17 year old girl and I have serious confidence issues..

Basically when I started secondary school I was picked on a bit..It was mostly by people I didn't know like people from different years..people called me fat and ugly..This made me really depressed I used to just eat becuase it made me feel better. I put on 2 stone in about 2 years because of this. The names obviously kept on coming to the point someone was saying something to me most days. It was devastating to hear these insults but I never cried infront of them. But when I got home I used to just break down. I had suicidal thoughts and I just wanted to end it.. my parents or no one know anything about this..

Im in college now and I still get suicidal thoughts sometimes..Im convinced people are talking about me behind my back and laughing at me.. I still cry alot in private because I think about all these things people have said to me..I feel like people are staring at me all the time..I don't leave the house much and I don't have alot of frienRAB becuase I've pushed them away by not keeping in contact..I also hate my body so much..I look in the mirror and I just want to punched it..Im overweight and have lost a bit of weight (im now a size 14 not an 18) but I think im hideous and I know people think that too otherwise they wouldn't of said anything

When people talk to me I always blush really badly. Sometimes I feel like Im going to cry..I don't know why I do this.. When I know that Im going to be in a crowd I start panicing and my heart beats really fast...even little things like if I answer one question in a lesson I go bright red...I don't even like phoning people or answer the phone..even this makes me bright red

I've never had a boyfriend, I don't think anyone will ever look at me like that..Im not desperate but all my frienRAB have had boyfrienRAB and I haven't even had my first kiss. I feel like im going to be alone all my life..

Its taking over my life, I try to avoid all social situations if I can becuase I just make a fool of myself..

What can I do?!
 
Your word "stone" implies from another land,but humans have problems everywhere.
I have a few ideas,and I hope you will excuse me from being generations older.I
developed the blushing,when I had a family to support. Here's what I did at work:
stand up when talking,(good relief),take off my glasses when talking,move around a step or two,(difficult if I'm trapped sitting),try to make this a threesome conversation (better when not,one on one).Louise Hay has a simple book that sold
30 some million copies that raises everyones self-esteem. Please get it.She won't tell you this,but I suggest some slimming exercises.This is mostly for you,and not for anyone else.(feeling I'm working on something).Whatever you mentioned in your post,I've had some form of all your stuff.(I looked like my sister etc.) Bill
 
There are probably a lot of things going on here, but one of them is simply your age. This won
 
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