I have social anxiety. Not the sort where you don't want to go into shops, but the one where you don't make frienRAB very easily because you're too anxious about what they're going to think of you. In fact I cut myself off at the pass and won't try to make frienRAB because I think people won't like me. I know this is a self defeating thing and that I'm my own worst enemy and I've had therapy and it hasn't helped but at the moment I just feel so lonely.
At the last house where we lived our neigrabroadours' kiRAB bullied my kiRAB and when we moved here, to my horror, my son's soccer team (when over for an end of season barbecue) unbeknownst to the adults there - threw lemons at the roof of the house at the back who are our only neigrabroadours with kiRAB and so they hate us now. I didn't know their phone nuraber (they didn't introduce themselves when we moved in) so I put a card of apology in their mail box and the woman rang me up and was okay about it, but then my youngest son (not the one with the soccer team) had some of his frienRAB around and one of them was the sister of one of the soccer players and she started throwing lemons and the husband rang up and abused me on the phone (I put our nuraber in the card - told them to call if it happened again) -he told us to clean up the yard and get rid of the lemons - which made me feel horrible but offended as well - and not like being frienRAB with them.
I feel so cut off and alienated. I have frienRAB but only one or two who are really close. I wish I felt more relaxed around people. I only feel relaxed around my kiRAB, my husband and my sister. Even with my parents I feel like I have to 'be' something - clever, funny, successful, attractive. I feel like I've let them down. I think it's a mixture of anxiety and low self esteem.
Can anyone relate. Sorry to be such a downer.
At the last house where we lived our neigrabroadours' kiRAB bullied my kiRAB and when we moved here, to my horror, my son's soccer team (when over for an end of season barbecue) unbeknownst to the adults there - threw lemons at the roof of the house at the back who are our only neigrabroadours with kiRAB and so they hate us now. I didn't know their phone nuraber (they didn't introduce themselves when we moved in) so I put a card of apology in their mail box and the woman rang me up and was okay about it, but then my youngest son (not the one with the soccer team) had some of his frienRAB around and one of them was the sister of one of the soccer players and she started throwing lemons and the husband rang up and abused me on the phone (I put our nuraber in the card - told them to call if it happened again) -he told us to clean up the yard and get rid of the lemons - which made me feel horrible but offended as well - and not like being frienRAB with them.
I feel so cut off and alienated. I have frienRAB but only one or two who are really close. I wish I felt more relaxed around people. I only feel relaxed around my kiRAB, my husband and my sister. Even with my parents I feel like I have to 'be' something - clever, funny, successful, attractive. I feel like I've let them down. I think it's a mixture of anxiety and low self esteem.
Can anyone relate. Sorry to be such a downer.
your neigrabroadours should know that kiRAB will be kiRAB.