understand me (Very deep)? I'm a 17 year old boy and..I don't know what to say..But I miss those days..The first day I flipped someone off, without even knowing what it meant..Not knowing right from wrong, always learning, but enjoying every minute of it..Coming home on a sunny day wearing a green shirt, and then sitting down to listen to All American Rejects "Move along" while I just sat in my chair, relaxed..Sun rays beaming through the window, making everything golden..
And then comes Highschool...Diagnosed with depression..Diagnosed with bipolar..Getting beat up everyday..Feeling so lonely, all my friends far away from me never to be seen again..I spend years single..Being bullied every stupid day..Feeling hatred for someone..For the very first f*cking time in my entire life..
Learning to hate food industries, the government, politicians..Learning about diseases, diabetes, AIDS, cancer, learning about death,..All this death surrounding us even as we speak..
Through my eyes..That golden glow everything had is gone now..And now, my vision seems...Dull, and lifleless..Everything is so serious..Every problem a person has, a doctor diagnoses it as part of a disorder..
You eventually grow to hate everyone so much that..It implodes, and you begin to hate unto yourself..
I hate this..I hate the change..I never let it bug me before..I got out of that depression months ago..Only to begin to wonder..Is it really worth it?
I just wanna drop out..And run away.. There was a time where I just listened to inspiring music, time when I joked, and made friends, time where I was sweet and I'd go to harms way just to keep love between people..But now? Things changed..I listen to death metal, and I sit wondering whether life is really worth living or not..
I was listening to a song, and..Well, to be honest, it just gave me a certain feeling..A feeling that I remember having those years ago..And I guess watching zombie films, and Stephen king movies doesn't really help..
When's it gonna be over? All the grown ups tell me it'll be over when I finish Highschool, when I'm older..I want it now..I want it to end.
Plus, I was kind of watching some anime, which..I loved a lot back then..
Just kind of having a nostalgia moment..
But I do want advice..And I do want someone to tell me that I'm not the only one..Please.
If it makes any sense: It's like a shroud is blanketing itself over me..A shroud of nothing but blackness..
Forgive my rambling..Don't bother answering if you don't want to
I wish I could just run away..Go back in time, and stay there..
Wow, dan..You are a real prick.
Writing IS my most special talent, from what others say..
But I don't really enjoy it..
Although..I love music, and..I write songs, and poems..
Not to mention, Titanic was on..Which was a movie that I remember always made me cry even when i was 14
And then comes Highschool...Diagnosed with depression..Diagnosed with bipolar..Getting beat up everyday..Feeling so lonely, all my friends far away from me never to be seen again..I spend years single..Being bullied every stupid day..Feeling hatred for someone..For the very first f*cking time in my entire life..
Learning to hate food industries, the government, politicians..Learning about diseases, diabetes, AIDS, cancer, learning about death,..All this death surrounding us even as we speak..
Through my eyes..That golden glow everything had is gone now..And now, my vision seems...Dull, and lifleless..Everything is so serious..Every problem a person has, a doctor diagnoses it as part of a disorder..
You eventually grow to hate everyone so much that..It implodes, and you begin to hate unto yourself..
I hate this..I hate the change..I never let it bug me before..I got out of that depression months ago..Only to begin to wonder..Is it really worth it?
I just wanna drop out..And run away.. There was a time where I just listened to inspiring music, time when I joked, and made friends, time where I was sweet and I'd go to harms way just to keep love between people..But now? Things changed..I listen to death metal, and I sit wondering whether life is really worth living or not..
I was listening to a song, and..Well, to be honest, it just gave me a certain feeling..A feeling that I remember having those years ago..And I guess watching zombie films, and Stephen king movies doesn't really help..
When's it gonna be over? All the grown ups tell me it'll be over when I finish Highschool, when I'm older..I want it now..I want it to end.
Plus, I was kind of watching some anime, which..I loved a lot back then..
Just kind of having a nostalgia moment..
But I do want advice..And I do want someone to tell me that I'm not the only one..Please.
If it makes any sense: It's like a shroud is blanketing itself over me..A shroud of nothing but blackness..
Forgive my rambling..Don't bother answering if you don't want to
I wish I could just run away..Go back in time, and stay there..
Wow, dan..You are a real prick.
Writing IS my most special talent, from what others say..
But I don't really enjoy it..
Although..I love music, and..I write songs, and poems..
Not to mention, Titanic was on..Which was a movie that I remember always made me cry even when i was 14