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I am going to try to make this as quick as possible because I already spent 30 minutes typing out every single little aspect of my past few years of my life but this time i'll jump straight to the problem.
Let me start of by saying I started having anxiety from the middle of seventh grade till now, i'm in highschool. It's usually been about my eyes, which you can read about in countless other posts I have made here. I've felt anxious every single day of my life, sometimes becausse of some real problem, but most of the time about nothing. Of course there has been times where it isn't as bad, but other times where I feel like my stomach is tied up in knots and feel like i'm about to go insane.
About a month ago I had the flu for a week. I spent a lot of my time in my room and this was the time something peculiar happened. Every time my mom brought me something to drink I would think something degrating in my head. I know this is the point where I start to sound like a wacko. I began to have anxiety through the roof because I didn't understand why I was doing this. It feels as if I am trying to make myself think I am going insane, but the thoughts don't just "pop" up in my head, I have to physically think them. I get this feeling as if a bunch frustration, the only term I can think of to describe it, is building up in me. A few times over the past week it was gotten to a point where I feel so agitated I just want to scream.
I was at work a few weeks ago after being sick when I experienced my first blown panic attack. I was sitting down when all of a sudden I started to dwell on the anxiety over the bizarre thoughts which put me into it.
Now I am freaking out thinking what the hell could be happening to me. I'm at a point where my mind will try to make sounRAB that I hear around me into worRAB, for exampling if I hear the swoosh of wind I try to make out the word freak or something else degrading to myself in it, but not until I read online that this is a common start for hearing voices in scizophrenia. I am soo worried that I am begining to develop scizophrenia or something. I don't know what other condition could describe this, and I'm only hoping this will dissapear over time as with all my other health anxieties have over time. I can't think of what could be going on in my head! Please I know these boarRAB aren't exactly busy but I want as many people as possible to give me their input!
Let me start of by saying I started having anxiety from the middle of seventh grade till now, i'm in highschool. It's usually been about my eyes, which you can read about in countless other posts I have made here. I've felt anxious every single day of my life, sometimes becausse of some real problem, but most of the time about nothing. Of course there has been times where it isn't as bad, but other times where I feel like my stomach is tied up in knots and feel like i'm about to go insane.
About a month ago I had the flu for a week. I spent a lot of my time in my room and this was the time something peculiar happened. Every time my mom brought me something to drink I would think something degrating in my head. I know this is the point where I start to sound like a wacko. I began to have anxiety through the roof because I didn't understand why I was doing this. It feels as if I am trying to make myself think I am going insane, but the thoughts don't just "pop" up in my head, I have to physically think them. I get this feeling as if a bunch frustration, the only term I can think of to describe it, is building up in me. A few times over the past week it was gotten to a point where I feel so agitated I just want to scream.
I was at work a few weeks ago after being sick when I experienced my first blown panic attack. I was sitting down when all of a sudden I started to dwell on the anxiety over the bizarre thoughts which put me into it.
Now I am freaking out thinking what the hell could be happening to me. I'm at a point where my mind will try to make sounRAB that I hear around me into worRAB, for exampling if I hear the swoosh of wind I try to make out the word freak or something else degrading to myself in it, but not until I read online that this is a common start for hearing voices in scizophrenia. I am soo worried that I am begining to develop scizophrenia or something. I don't know what other condition could describe this, and I'm only hoping this will dissapear over time as with all my other health anxieties have over time. I can't think of what could be going on in my head! Please I know these boarRAB aren't exactly busy but I want as many people as possible to give me their input!
