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I never knew I could hurt so much ... yet stay so composed on the outside.
The story is I'm in high school, and frankly I'm sick of it and sick of the cliques, sluts and plain asses. I have only a handful of half friends, nobody is close to a best friend. I feel so isolated.. like if I died nobody at school would give a **** if I was gone or not. Heck, I don't even know if I exist at that hellhole. Waking up every morning is a draining task... I hate the fact everybody there has a group of good besties to hang out with and just be themselves around... I'm stuck with myself or tagging along some people who I have no interests with. I know what you're thinking to me... 'go make some friends, go talk to people' but the thing is, I CAN'T. People have cliques, there are stupid boundaries in high school which makes things so unaccessible, only to the 'cool' people. I have 1 more year left, and it's so bloody painful. I'm not ugly, I'm just deprived of real friends. I enjoy company and the life in primary school where I had so many friends... now it's like I've been bottled for 6years.
Will I find these friends in University? That's the last hope for me... Is university generally a good experience to come out more and just meet people who wont judge every ounce of you before you talk to them?
Advice please?
The story is I'm in high school, and frankly I'm sick of it and sick of the cliques, sluts and plain asses. I have only a handful of half friends, nobody is close to a best friend. I feel so isolated.. like if I died nobody at school would give a **** if I was gone or not. Heck, I don't even know if I exist at that hellhole. Waking up every morning is a draining task... I hate the fact everybody there has a group of good besties to hang out with and just be themselves around... I'm stuck with myself or tagging along some people who I have no interests with. I know what you're thinking to me... 'go make some friends, go talk to people' but the thing is, I CAN'T. People have cliques, there are stupid boundaries in high school which makes things so unaccessible, only to the 'cool' people. I have 1 more year left, and it's so bloody painful. I'm not ugly, I'm just deprived of real friends. I enjoy company and the life in primary school where I had so many friends... now it's like I've been bottled for 6years.
Will I find these friends in University? That's the last hope for me... Is university generally a good experience to come out more and just meet people who wont judge every ounce of you before you talk to them?
Advice please?