Since starting counselling about 2 months ago (I've since stopped with that counsellor), I've been cutting and scratching myself (only really minor). I'm now seeing my GP, who is also a counsellor, about the underlying thought processes that I assume drove me to start this behaviour in the first place.
I'm feeling a bit confused though, because at times I don't seem to have much control, and hurt myself when I'm not even upset, which is really stupid, but at the time it just seems like the right thing to do. Then, at other times I seem to be able to really step out of my situation, and I decide that I really should get some help to stop this before it gets any worse.
But I feel like I don't really want to stop hurting myself, so I'm really not sure whether I should tell my doctor about this or not, seeing as telling him will no doubt end in me having to try not to do it.
Also, just the fact that it's really minor, and there aren't that many visible cuts or scars that I can't explain with an excuse or cover with bracelets.
I guess I'm just really confused. What do you think I should do?
I'm feeling a bit confused though, because at times I don't seem to have much control, and hurt myself when I'm not even upset, which is really stupid, but at the time it just seems like the right thing to do. Then, at other times I seem to be able to really step out of my situation, and I decide that I really should get some help to stop this before it gets any worse.
But I feel like I don't really want to stop hurting myself, so I'm really not sure whether I should tell my doctor about this or not, seeing as telling him will no doubt end in me having to try not to do it.
Also, just the fact that it's really minor, and there aren't that many visible cuts or scars that I can't explain with an excuse or cover with bracelets.
I guess I'm just really confused. What do you think I should do?