Would she just think its just a boyish fantasy? I am scared she might react bad but I still feel too guilty.
Please don't insult me. This is the only place I can tell a problem like this openly. I have long had a very lusty love for my aunt who is my mom's friend and my bestfriend's mom. I sometimes feel bad about thinking badly about his mom but honestly I can't help it.
I have a collection of her photos and she is 40 years old. Everyday, I go and masturbate looking at her photos. Is this normal?
Since I was small I have been in her house with my friend (her son) and she has given me food and I have even slept over at their place. I am only 15 years old.
I have wild fantasies like having a shower with her naked, having sex with her, banging her against the wall, making her suck my **** and massaging her breasts from behind. But after masturbating I feel so guilty, I nearly feel like killing my self and I feel like ending my friendship with her son because of the guilt. Is this normal? what can I do?
From the time, I was born, she has known me so throughout my life, she always kisses me when I go to her place and she does that even today but I am not saying she kisses with bad intentions but she kisses in a aunt-nephew kind of way. But she is so beautiful.
I don't want to have sex with her but I am too addicted to fantasizing about her. I simply cannot stop masturbating thinking of her. Is that bad? I feel so guilty when I see her son and her and I put my head down in shame.
I wonder what she will think of me if she ever knew I had these wild thoughts of her. What would she think if she knew? Would she just shrug it off as normal for a boy my age to think of her in that way.
Nowadays I also feel jealous when even her husband touches her but I am just going to keep to masturbating about and nothing else. But still feel guilty when I see her son or her? I feel like a sick pervert but I don't want to be but can't help it.
She has always been like a friend to me. She is very open and she always says I can talk to her about anything. Lately, I have been feeling guilty and I think she knows I have a problem and several times, she has asked me why I am a bit worried these days.
If I tell her, I would at least feel less guilty and she is the kind of person you can talk anything about and she won't tell my parents or anything but still how can I tell her I am having fantasies like banging her against a wall to her? I really don't know but the guilt is getting too much.
Please don't insult me. This is the only place I can tell a problem like this openly. I have long had a very lusty love for my aunt who is my mom's friend and my bestfriend's mom. I sometimes feel bad about thinking badly about his mom but honestly I can't help it.
I have a collection of her photos and she is 40 years old. Everyday, I go and masturbate looking at her photos. Is this normal?
Since I was small I have been in her house with my friend (her son) and she has given me food and I have even slept over at their place. I am only 15 years old.
I have wild fantasies like having a shower with her naked, having sex with her, banging her against the wall, making her suck my **** and massaging her breasts from behind. But after masturbating I feel so guilty, I nearly feel like killing my self and I feel like ending my friendship with her son because of the guilt. Is this normal? what can I do?
From the time, I was born, she has known me so throughout my life, she always kisses me when I go to her place and she does that even today but I am not saying she kisses with bad intentions but she kisses in a aunt-nephew kind of way. But she is so beautiful.
I don't want to have sex with her but I am too addicted to fantasizing about her. I simply cannot stop masturbating thinking of her. Is that bad? I feel so guilty when I see her son and her and I put my head down in shame.
I wonder what she will think of me if she ever knew I had these wild thoughts of her. What would she think if she knew? Would she just shrug it off as normal for a boy my age to think of her in that way.
Nowadays I also feel jealous when even her husband touches her but I am just going to keep to masturbating about and nothing else. But still feel guilty when I see her son or her? I feel like a sick pervert but I don't want to be but can't help it.
She has always been like a friend to me. She is very open and she always says I can talk to her about anything. Lately, I have been feeling guilty and I think she knows I have a problem and several times, she has asked me why I am a bit worried these days.
If I tell her, I would at least feel less guilty and she is the kind of person you can talk anything about and she won't tell my parents or anything but still how can I tell her I am having fantasies like banging her against a wall to her? I really don't know but the guilt is getting too much.