hey everybody.
i'm currently a ninth grader at a very rigorous private high school in new england, and lately i can seem to handle the pressure. i was new this year but i dont think thats the problem, i've moved around a lot from country to country (this is my 6th school) and I have a bunch of friends... but the thing is everyone at my school only cares about sports
i, on the other hand, love the humanities, writing poetry, theatre... but the teachers here don't care about that. the pressure is so intense to do well in sports and all subjects overall just so you can get into an ivy and become something i do not want to become.
i've always felt i had a strong sense of identity but suddenly i feel so lost. i don't know who i am anymore. i come home from school and cry almost everyday because i feel like i'm failing (i'm getting a's and b's, whereas i used to get all a's), and i feel like i've ruined my whole life. sometimes i start to hyperventilate as if i'm having a panic attack. i've stopped eating and i can't sleep because i worry about how i'm not doing well in school, and wasting my parents money. i feel so alone...
please help me. my options are to stay at this private school or to switch to my cities public school, either now or in 10th grade. i really want to switch now, and my parents would allow it (because they see how miserable i am) but i don't want to seem like a coward. is it very difficult to transfer in the middle of the year? do you think it would be worth it? or should i stay at my school?
thanks guys. xx lena
i'm currently a ninth grader at a very rigorous private high school in new england, and lately i can seem to handle the pressure. i was new this year but i dont think thats the problem, i've moved around a lot from country to country (this is my 6th school) and I have a bunch of friends... but the thing is everyone at my school only cares about sports
i, on the other hand, love the humanities, writing poetry, theatre... but the teachers here don't care about that. the pressure is so intense to do well in sports and all subjects overall just so you can get into an ivy and become something i do not want to become.
i've always felt i had a strong sense of identity but suddenly i feel so lost. i don't know who i am anymore. i come home from school and cry almost everyday because i feel like i'm failing (i'm getting a's and b's, whereas i used to get all a's), and i feel like i've ruined my whole life. sometimes i start to hyperventilate as if i'm having a panic attack. i've stopped eating and i can't sleep because i worry about how i'm not doing well in school, and wasting my parents money.
i feel so alone...please help me. my options are to stay at this private school or to switch to my cities public school, either now or in 10th grade. i really want to switch now, and my parents would allow it (because they see how miserable i am) but i don't want to seem like a coward. is it very difficult to transfer in the middle of the year? do you think it would be worth it? or should i stay at my school?
thanks guys. xx lena