SmartCookie
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I have dated my bf for almost 4 years now. He is my first boyfriend and my first love. We haven't had sex but we've done everything before it. I feel like he is a big part of my life and I am having a really hard time letting him go. We've been through a lot of ups and downs and got into fights over little things. Usually it's him that pulls the plug and says we should break up or take a break and its usually me that tries to change his mind because I can't find myself not being with him. A lot of people have told me I can do aaaa lot better than him and that he doesn't deserve me but still I find myself drawn to him. I really don't know why I love him so much. He's not the sweetest boyfriend and he's not dream boy material either. I've just known him my whole life and can't imagine myself without him. Today he told me that he's really busy with his life because hes working and trying to focus on school (we're both 21 and in university). Just last week we were completely fine and I went on a trip this weekend and he says thats when he thought its unfair to me because he wont have time to spend with me and he thinks I can do better and deserve better. What do I do? I told him I disagree and that he can't make decisions for me but I don't think he's into me anymore. Should I just learn to let go or fight for him? I don't know what to do...I'll feel so hurt and lost without him...and I feel like my worlds going to end without him...but if he finds it so easy to let go of me then I shouldn't care this much right? Should I let him go or fight for him? Help!!!