xBreakMyRealityx
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...please? I was with this guy for 2 years. for the first year we weren't official...but we were only seeing each other (at the time there were things keeping us from calling each other bf and gf) well we eventually tried a relationship that lasted maybe 5 months...then we broke up cuz I was neglected. He just didnt care about me, no matter what I did. it seemed that all he cared about was the physical. He he knew I deserved better, so we broke up. we stopped talking for 3 weeks then started hanging out again and then the cycle started once again...and I let it because I stilled missed him and I stilled hoped that I could change him and things and that we could in the end, end up happily ever after. of course that never happened. we stilled remained friends with benefits...although at times it seemed as though I broke down little walls in him and that we were becoming more. about 5 months later he got in a relationship with another girl. But in what little time he was with her (about a month) I could already tell he was treating her better. I noticed this by the little comments hewould leave to his friends on facebook and myspace. well after they broke up of course thats when my phone rang...and I answered. The last time we truly hung out was last summer. He has since been in a long time relationship (almost a year) and I dated a little and now I am in a 7 month long relationship with a guy who I love sooooooooo much. Im so happy to have him. he truly is the best thing that has happened to me. he treats me so good and I dont even have to ask, or beg or cry for it. In fact we have been talking about getting engaged one day. But back to my ex...being with my bf has made me realize even more than I already did, how much of an asshole my ex was and how horrible he treated me. and im disgusted by him. I realize I allowed him to mistreat me over the years...but that doesnt change the fact that it happend. back in Sept. he invited me out to watch his band play. I went. said hi, told him congrats, then split. he was bummed that I left so soon, but I kinda didnt want to linger around him, or i guess let him think I stilled cared. But even though all that happened I stilled wanted him back again. And It started F-ing with my head. I started thinking well maybe it was my fault things ended, maybe its me who needs to change. since that night we talked maybe 3 times over IM..nothing more. But last month I was out with friends and ran into him. again we chatted and then I split. I didnt want to be around him. I guess I do this cuz I want him to know that he cant control me anymore, that Im not waiting anymore. I was hurt sooo badly by him.. in more ways than I can type...(2+ years worth). when I left, again he was bummed and confused as to why I split so soon. I never gave a reason. I never called to hang out like he suggested so that we could catch up. The difference between this time and last time, is now im in a healthy relationship so seeing him doesnt bother me as much. But it still bothers me a little, because Im stuck thinking, why does he look so sad when I leave, am I beeing to much of a *****? I didnt wish him a happy birthday a few days ago like I always do. Iv bascilly cut him out. So my question is...considering everything, how I already treat him, how he treated me, how happy I am without him. Would I be an even bigger ***** to tell him I no longer want to speak to him? or should I continue like now and dont talk to him, but when I run into him remain civil?
not that it should matter that much but I am 19, my bf is 20 and ex just turned 22
not that it should matter that much but I am 19, my bf is 20 and ex just turned 22